The last night of the year...

Well the night is not yet over.. but in my words it was the perfect night.. Firstly I realized how much some people mean to me... today was supposed to be a boring day because I had no plans for tonight and decided that I will sit at home only and watch some Tv shows etc. Well today started off by my old childhood friend Sriram visiting my place, which was a great start as we enjoyed our time talking. We met nikeeta and shiny at different times as their free times didn't matched.. Sriram, shiny and I roamed around in the mall for a while and then when sriram was supposed to leave for station, we decided that all three of us will go to station in my scooter, I was driving it, sriram at my back and then shiny, it reminded me of the scene in the movie Swades. Also I went back to my memories of jodhpur for a while. After sriram left, I , nikita and shiny were supposed to meet at around 5:30 pm for the new year eve. I came back home at around 4 pm. Then after some time some family friend kid came to me to ask me doubts in maths, so he started off and I was going on comfortably when suddenly I saw my watch and realised it is 6:45 pm, I completely forgot about the meeting. I then rushed through his doubts and finished within 5-10 mins. I called up nikeeta - phone was unavailable, so I called up shiny - she was not so much pissed off but was angry and shocked that how I forgot. I said thousand sorries and then decided to make it up. I knew shiny will not come down again so I decided I will go to nikita's colg and say sorry. So I called her up and said I am coming, she told me she was going with her friends to marine drive so make it early, so I rushed my scooter at 70kmph (like in jodhpur :P)and reached.. there she was with her friends.. then as a punishment I had to take her to station on my scooter.. so I took her.. rectified her headphones which were not working..and then she left for her trip.. after that I again called up shiny and told her sorry.. Then the sweetest part began.. I reached home with burgers from McD for me and my sis.. After enjoying the burgers I switched on the home theatre in radio mode and in a very loud volume.. I loved the sound.. My sis said she would dance tonight at 12 on this sound.. After that the whole family including my grandfather and grandmother sat in the drawing room and started chatting.. and this was the best part of the night.. My grandfather told me stories about his college day life and I came to know how jolly he has been all through his life... I still remember hearing stories and jokes from him when I used to visit my village during my holidays.. He told me an incident where one person asked him - " Dont u have any worries in life? why are u so happy always ?" ..He replied that time - " Of course I have tons of worries but that doesnt means I cannot be happy and laughing all the time" .. I was moved by it that how simple those lines may be but how strong it was.. This one incident told me everything about him.. next best thing that happened was chatting with my sis.. I just suddenly started giving her fundaes of life..which moved on to me asking riddles and puzzles to her which I made on the spot.. I was enjoying it very much, I was not complaining about her weaknesses neither she was angry or shouting at me.. then the topic moved on to astrology.. and predicting future.. my grandfather saw the lines in the hand and said ur fate line is very nice, ur wealth line is also very good, but ur heart line is the best.. it reaches right up to the point between the fingers on both hands so that when i join both my hands it makes a half moon.. I noticed no one except my sis had the heart line so deep.. my mom's was just short of the half moon.. my dad's was not even close to half moon.. my sis suddenly came and hugged me saying wow we are so similar by heart... I felt so relaxed and happy after discussing all these which also included my childhood.. jodhpur .. tunmun's childhood.. I was overwhelmed.. I thought to myself what can be a better celebration that this.. My grandfather saw the glow of satisfaction in my eyes.. Even my sis saw it.. I felt it

Selfish

From childhood I know only one definition of selfish i.e. thinking only about one-self and not caring about what happens to others. Well I never liked this idea of being selfish and doing things only to make me happy. Along the years I realized I obtain happiness by bringing about happiness to others. When something which I have done makes others happy, I become happy automatically. Even if I have to make a sacrifice in making that happen, I like to do it. One friend of mine told me that I am lying that I get happiness by seeing happiness. Well he is partly right and partly wrong. I am happy if I see deserving people happy but angry when it is the opposite. I find it difficult to say no when people ask for help from me. I think helping too much can in turn hurt me :P when the people whom I would help would just vanish after that or come to surface only when they need help. Well to prevent that I have developed the theory of expectations where you expect nothing in return from anyone anytime anywhere. I tried changing myself but couldn't as it suffocated me and made me unhappy.

PS:- Getting bored.. waiting for an adventure to happen... like asteroid hitting earth or ice caps melting faster :P

Phew !

Finally, the end of war, uff never had a fight like this in my life. I don't care what others think of me because I know what and who I am, whether I am influenced by others or not etc.

Well, leaving all that shit, I and alok went to Malad today, went to Inorbit Mall, Mindspace, walked and roamed about a lot, and finally ate at Papa john's. We tried it for the first time, it was better than Dominoes but not as good as Pizza hut, though few items were very innovative indeed and also it was very price effective. Alok said he wants to roam around mumbai for the next few days and so I will accompany him.

Also, Mood Indigo is in the air, the best time of the year :), not because of the girls but due to the environment and ambiance, so lively and dynamic. Sonu nigam is coming this year, along with Rabbi shergill, Indian Ocean. Apart from this there are many other small concerts, circuses etc.

And tomorrow I am taking Alok to kharghar :) though he has been there before. Also I need to get my certis.

Respect

One cannot develop respect for someone right away, it is a gradual process and takes time for me. I used to respect someone but recently all the respect is gone and now when I look back at my scribblings on the blog I feel awesome because through out this time I learned few great lessons and gained a very nice experience out of it, that is all I can say. My friends always told me never be serious about any bonds and I didn't listen to them, few told me girls are evil but I didn't believe, some told me to act like someone but I didn't because I couldn't. Now I realized what all they were saying. I have to learn now so that I can survive. The problem is there is my upbringing, I was told from childhood that everyone is good, everything is good, there is always hope whatever be the case. Those words still ring in my ears but I guess it is time to let them go. The world has become a stage where people enter only to act their lives out and live happily but those few unfortunate who cannot act are left with nothing but sadness. But times are changing now, right now I am the most relaxed person on earth and enjoying life at it's best. Yesterday I went to see my office in powai and the office complex is awesome, near the hills and great view of hiranandani towers. Again the expectations from the job are at zero, if I don't like it,it will not hurt as bad It has become very easy to forget some people as I realized they never actually understood me. But I don't blame those people as understanding me can be a great deal.

PS:- Upbringing plays a very important role, if you remain confined in your rooms and homes expecting someday suddenly you will come out and have everything then your mindset is bound to be confined, but when you actually face the world everyday you see how people are actually and how you have to manage yourself to survive, well someday someone will realize, that day is not far away, about 6-7 months away.

Fed Up

Totally fed up with arguments and all, today morning I received the same message from two of my friends - Vikesh and Nikeeta which said - Never explain yourself to anyone, person who likes you, doesn't need it and the person who dislikes you won't believe it. I really liked the theme of the message and thought that why the hell am I explaining myself to some "selfish rabbit" freak, if some freak goes on barking something or other and I respond then there is no difference left between that freak and me. So it is better to let them bark and shout because those who bark don't bite.

PS:- hehe alok dekh yahan wapas prove ho gaya ki IGNORANCE IS NOT BLISS ... :P

The Good, Bad and the Worse....

Everywhere we observe people who are good in politics prosper like anything moving above the hierarchy of power and prosperity. I think it's time that I should also learn some tricks as there is no place for all that goodness and simplicity in this cruel world. Going through different phases and experiences I learned that when you help others, care for others, the returns are only bad and nothing else. You then feel as if you have been fooled by them and they have used you. So it is better to have an image of a cruel, bad, insensitive person so that you know that nobody will even try to come close to you and fool you. It has become the ages of the bad where good only suffocates to death. But the problem lies at the root level - how can one change oneself from being good to bad? What if it is not their in the genes or blood? What if one's instincts tell you not to do so? It is obviously tough but to prevent further mistakes one needs to do it or atleast try to reach a certain level so that the person cannot be fooled again. I hope I learn fast.

God save Them, Help Them

I thought some people had brains, but unfortunately it was just an illusion. If someone passes on a sarcasm, the other person, if he/she has brains, would understand it. But but but.. there are few people who are so unaware that they make fun of themselves and don't even realize that.. and you realize you are fighting with a five year old kid. So I would like to pray to GOD to please save them from this ignorance who think they are the only ones who know a few words and their meaning and all. Pity on them, bechare, I feel why should one even fight with such ignorant people for it will only be unfair to them. Atleast the category must be the same - A GROWN up cannot fight with a child, its unfair naa!!
I get a bit of angry when someone abuses MUSIC but it's fine when someone who doesn't knows the difference between the genres of music is commenting about it. I forgive them for their IGNORANCE. May GOD show them the right way and give them the right knowledge.Amen!

PS:- Earlier I was laughing but now I feel sorry for the "selfish rabbit", Ohh so sad re, I pity. GET WELL SOON!!!
PPS:- Bechare zameen par !!! hehe ... Nice spoof.. by the way..
PPPS:- I love PS's. :P
PPPPS:- Hey alok you remember the "wannabe" post on X-chromosomes, I think I can add few aspects to it. Tell this to shut-up-di .. :P

Chikna ghada

There is a saying in some language (may be madwadi) that a chikna ghadha(container) refers to a type of person who is stubborn and doesn't listens to anyone whatsoever.

PS:- hehe rotfl .. hehe.. Still laughing out loud on the earlier post's misinterpretation. "Selfish rabbit" has gone into the heights of misinterpretation, why am I watching sitcoms I should blog more to get more of this kind of laugh. Hehehe.. My god!. Ooops the PS is longer than the actual post :P. Mummy when are you coming back from delhi, I wanna show and tell you something, you will LAUGH OUT LOUD too.

PPS:- Laughter is surely the best medicine, and anger reduces life time :P, I feel much more energetic now wow!

PPPS:- Wana be madhumakkhi? beees ... :P, hehe ok ok, now I will stop laughing for a while (shit it's tough not to :D)

The Corrs

It was a mistake but ended up in such a beautiful experience. The mistake was that I downloaded a different -"breathless" expecting it to be the one by shankar mahadevan. Well thank God, I downloaded the wrong one because that brought me in the world of the Corrs. Ya it is a band of Irish origin with the whole family playing and singing in it. For details visit wikipedia. The song breathless just took my breathe away - two reasons - the song itself and the singer , just wow! Andrea corr is the lead singer and tin whistle player, Sharon and Caroline are her sisters who play violin and drums respectively, the brother of all three plays the guitar. So where was I, ya the song. It was just amazing. I fell in love with Andrea at the first song at itself. I listened to the song atleast few hundred times which freaked my sister away :P.
When I told others about her, I came to know that everyone already knew about her. For example shatabdi was fighting over the fact that who was hotter - andrea or sharon. I said andrea and she supported the other two which ended in no result :P. Well she is gonna lose, no doubt. I found out from wikipedia that sharon and caroline got married and left their career, one got married on 9th july (My mom's birthday) and other on 22nd August (My birthday) :P, interesting!

PS:- Their debut album is named Forgiven, not Forgotten :P hehe .. man !!! what is happening all around, too much weird world :P ..hehe

PPS:- They are good, do listen to them.

Bachna Ae Haseeno (Beware !!! O Beautiful girls)

Well whatever people may say - I was rolling on the floor laughing at many times during the movie. Basically I was surprised to see the similarity between the movie and real life(at least my life). Well the movie starts off with a young 18 year old Raj (uff cant they find any new name !!! come on man !!! raj malhotra, raj aryan malhotra, raj oberoi and what not!!), but yes the name plays a veryyyy important role in the movie. Well as per the rules of yash raj movies, Switzerland must be shown, so it starts off with Raj with 3 friends going to Euro trip after their school (Ohh my god !! they surely had money, although they said cheap tickets but come on! well this is forgiven for now as many more are to come), they fortunately(movie luck) meet a gang of four girls (hmmm gang of FOUR girls, sort of deja vu (not only movies but also my real life)), well the ratio is 1:1, such a beautiful coincidence. Well the heroine(Mahi(Hmmm mahi..again very very very close ...deja vu)), who is so jolly and happy-go-lucky, always smiling and thinks she is great(hmmm again and again deja vu... ) is essentially searching for Raj of her life. So the Raj here plays the mandolin to impress her and she gets impressed indeed. Finally some way they get to meet and talk and finally the girl tells him that she is getting married so please come and save me. Now 18 years boy !!! will save the girl,hmmm..hmmm.. not too much deja vu..but sort of.. Now the jhatka comes in, the boy turns out to be a loser and reveals to his friends that he was doing all this for time pass(Not a deja vu as there must be friends in real life to tell anything). Well not actually time pass, in the movie he argues that he was only 18 years old and that he couldn't tell the truth in front of his friends because it would appear foolish. Well the girl is devasted but the boy remains fine ... NOT AT ALL DEJA VU.. Well moving on, 6 years later, the boy has got a job in MICROSOFT(what the hell.. was he an iitian..? or was he a super genius) in mumbai of course, and lives with a girl named Radhika (hmmm.. right now I am waiting..what would she be in my life called - radha, radhiska(?), radho(hehe), radio (Ohh my god !!)),anyways from this point onwards I can't relate it to my life as I am still not there so I will simply write (the exciting part was gone with the "mahi" part :(.. indeed interesting and sometimes shocking too..baap re).. Well with radhika he thinks she is cool but turns out she also wants marriage and all and so he ditched her on the wedding day and flies to sydney (The happening place), so after 5 more years (when he is 29), he is shown working on video game portals and designing. Well in short, there he meets this cab driver - Gayatri (hmmm in my life she would be called - Gayati(?), Gay (Ohh my god no...)), anyways this time he reaaally falls in love with her but gets dumped by her and now realized what he has done in the past (a bit of deja vu.. only a bit). So now he decides to go back and say sorry (after 12 years !!!). Exciting part starts again (Mahi....yay!!!), he goes first to amritsar to meet mahi(who is married by the way now), and meets her "twin" children(Ohh my god!!! twins .. too much deja vu..shocking), anyways her husband beats him up and sets him free but he comes back by DDLJ method and meets a totally different... mahi..one who has lost hope..one who is always angry.. thinks that love doesn't exists..etc etc, so Raj basically makes her realize that what she is doing is only RUINING her life and nothing else, she is not able to grasp the happiness around her etc etc (hehe.. deja vu again.. this part was missing until today), well mahi realizes it and finally jogi and mahi live happily ever after (I wish deja vu...). Now Raj moves to radhika, who by the way has become hot shot model and which was her earlier dream, man her attitude , baap re.. , naak me ghussa (again deja vu...) well she has also become all angry type and stubborn etc, she gives him punishment by making him work like anything in all spheres, be it waiter, personal assistant etc. Finally she says a lot of things to him (deja vu.. obvi..), and tells him to go away, but later she realizes that in this state of anger she has forgotten who she really is, always frustrated with everything etc, she then tells him that she forgives him and then suddenly she finds herself back again..and felt nice about it (I wish deja vu .. :( but not until now..), so now the boring max part begins, Raj gets back to australia to fin out that Gayatri is also in love with him and finally they get married and all.

Hmmmmmm lots of deja vu and shockers in this, but to be true I really liked watching the movie, it was fun listening to so familiar real life dialogues and mind you "THERE IS NO SARCASM INVOLVED IN THIS AND ALSO THERE IS NO PUN INTENDED" in this post.

PS:- All English grammar lovers.... sorry :P

Laught Out loud !! Hilarious

Recent attacks on Mumbai was really a shock, it was sudden and unexpected. Terrorists in rush hour taking out their guns and open firing at the people, hijacked hotels, killed the hostages and what not. Without any doubt, the fingers were pointed to our neighbors and the neighbors were very much offended as if they knew nothing about it and are totally unaware and innocent. Well then few days back a video was released on net showing a media channel saying arbitrary things about our country and our army, they inferred their own conclusion out of it and said in a provoking language. Well the most hilarious part of it was there interpretation of FACTS shown to them. If you haven't seen the video then please watch it, it is worth a watch. It shows how MISinterpretation of "FACTS" can lead to such hilarious encounters in the history of media. Indian people after watching the video were obviously angry but at the same time were LAUGHING OUT LOUD at the ignorance of them. Well I guess the brains of the people of that region are used to such MISinterpretations. Well this was at a national level, some also occur at individual level.
Later the captured terrorist and his family was totally unveiled in the international media and the truth was out. Well the truth has to come out some way or the other and this is how it works everywhere be it national level or individual level. But you know, the "selfish rabbit" would not let go of the carrot at any cost.

Once

I don't remember when, but some day in the last 3 months, one of my friends- shashank, suggested me a movie named- 'Once'. He said the songs are great and as a music enthusiast you must watch it. So I downloaded the movie(within 5 minutes :P) and started watching it (although it was 2:00am ). The movie started off with a nice soothing song with the main lead hero strumming his broken guitar and singing for money(I thought of this profession when I was not getting any job, I thought of being a beggar at CST station and one day get killed by a terrorist, my friend alok wanted to join me but I said you should play at a different place, it will increase the returns from the begging :P).Well now I will not need it (unfortunately :(, because I would have loved it, music all day , freedom wow!). So, the movie, second song in the movie was "say it to me now", at the end of this song the female lead appears. Well I was already lost in the movie when this beautiful song came in - "falling slowly", it took my mind away. I was so thrilled in the course of the movie, I wished that time I was in there actually, playing my own songs(dream) like the male lead did in the movie.
Everything was going on perfectly like a perfect movie made for me, the guy always lost in the thought of his love from past life, receiving great comments about the songs he wrote, just amazing. The guy formed a temporary band to record his songs and go for a record deal. The whole journey shown so beautifully. And then finally they were in a studio, recording their first song. I was already on the seventh heaven watching all these, when something took me to the fourteenth heaven, it was the song, the one which I liked the best - "when your mind's made up". There are few songs for which you just close your eyes and listen, for which you stop doing everything else, for which you don't need any excuse and there it was - the song of the moment, the song that hit hard, perfectly at just the perfect place at the perfect time. This song took me to some different place, some different time. I saw this portion of the movie again and again and again, about a thousand times, not even sure of that, may be more. When the movie ended it was 5:30am, the movie is less than 1 and half hours long but it took me 3 and half to complete it as i watched few scenes again and again and again.
After this night, the song is in my every play-list till now. In fact, today I watched the movie again and my body hairs , eyes , ears reacted in the same way as they did that night. I decided to write about the movie as I was watching it again. Amazing movie (at least for me).
The movie didn't ended by- the guy and girl living together happily ever after, but ended in a way that both were happy and missed each other very much. I couldn't sleep that night after watching the movie, how can I? I took my guitar into hands and wondered...

The song --" Dard-E-Tisco "

Well nowadays, after getting a job I am quite jobless :P. So I landed up searching arbitrary things in arbitrary places and bags. This endless search led me to a copy which I got(took :P) during my TATA Steel internship. I found a song named - Dard-e-tisco written there. I remembered the instance when it was written. We all were returning by bus and singing and enjoying when I sang Dard-e-tisco instead of Dard-e-disco, and there is was the origin of this song. Vivek(paty) was very enthu about the concept of this song, so I and paty started off writing this song in a copy. The song goes like this-

Tata employee ki beti haseen
Kar gayi kaisi jadoogari
Neend in aakhon se cheen li hain
dil me bechainiya hai bhari

Main awara main deewana
Ab samjhayu main ye kis kis ko
Dil me mere hain Tata tisco...Tata tisco...Tata tisco...

Dep me chaar thi, chaaro me do huhaa thi
Kispe tiku, yehi mann me confusion tha
pehli wali ultimaaldaar party thi
Doosri wali LG Fl***on thi

Kisko patau main hoonkara, kaise patau main hoonkara
ab dhundhta unhe main yahaan wahan, everywhere inside TISCO
dil me mere hain TATA tisco...

Mahine beetein, koi to naa mili mujhko
loveguru tha, usne bhi dhoka diya mujhko
Khud le gaya maaldar party ko wo
Fl***on ne bhi bhaav nahi diya mujhko

Fundae diye sab bekkar, kaisa zamana hain- sab bekaar
ab phirta hu main yahaan wahaan, like mango sakchi,kadma , bistu
Dil me mere hain Dard-e-tisco..Dard-e-tisco...Dard-e-tisco..


Lyrics:- Vivek pateshwari aka Paty
Paper:- Soham Chakraborty
Support:- Sid and Bhaskar


PS:- Mango , sakchi , kadma , bistupur are places in jamshedpur.

The Hurdle

When I saw my name in the shortlist for interviews, Rahul bajaj was there with me, he was also waiting for the results with me. So after a grilling group case study and individual presentation I finally made it to the interview, the chance I have been waiting for so long. After the result, rahul bajaj started giving me final tips and fundaes to crack the interview advising me what to say and what not to say in the interview(He mainly dealt with the HR type questions leaving the technical stuff for me). So without any delay I moved forward to the metallurgy department where the interviews were going on. When I reached there I saw that my name is second in the list for interview in room number 106. So I started revising the HR questions as I heard from everywhere they ask HR questions mainly. After about 45 minutes, they called up my name. I went in with two copies of my resume. I greeted the interviewer and gave him one copy of my resume. As I gave the copy I realized I had not stapled the two pages of my resume. So as expected the interviewer gave me a disgusting look and asked me- "You haven't even stapled your resume?". Without losing my composure and confidence, I replied - "Sir, it is easier to view the resume in one go when the pages are not stapled, you can get the whole picture of what I have done in one go". Impressed by my answer, he replied -"That's nice, you took care of this little thing". The next question as I expected was - "You are an electrical engineer, why do you want to join consulting?". I was more than ready for the answer and so I replied - "Sir, I don't want to confine myself to be working on the same problem for many years like we do in MS or PhD, I want to pierce through various dimensions and different fields of knowledge like we do in consulting where we deal with practical problems at the root". Then as I was expecting another HR question, I was shocked that the next question was - "Can you write me a code for sorting numbers?". Without showing my level of shock and fear, I asked him- "Which sorting algorithm?". He said any of my choice. Within those micro and milli seconds I recalled everything I studied the day before yesterday with alok, where alok was reading the book and explaining me the sorting algorithms, data algorithms when I was busy playing the guitar!(That day's(1.5 hours hardly) study helped both me and alok, it helped alok get through avaya's interview).So I chose the selection sort and explained him the algorithm and wrote a pseudo code to satisfy him. I even gave the time complexity of the algorithm to impress him. He then asked me a question based on the algorithm to which I first gave the wrong answer but then corrected myself. He then asked me about bubble sort to which I replied I haven't studied it. He again gave that disgusting look and I was preparing myself to cover up, someone entered the room distracting him to some other task. So I bought some time and relaxed. After that I replied by saying I have studied only selection, merge and quick sort(little did he knew that I studied it only two days back :P).After that he asked me a puzzle on chess board and asked my approach to solve that, it was a question which I solved way back in kota when I was in bansal, a simple permutation and combination problem. So I gave him the approach and he was happy. He then asked me - "Where have you applied IT in your life till now?". I was not expecting this but somehow I related IT to the academic projects I did in my curriculum and inspired him. He then directly asked me to explain one of the projects, I opted for the vowel synthesizer and explain him the project in layman terms giving him the facts which would appear fascinating to a common person and act like USP(unique selling point). Then he asked me about my extra curricular activities, so without any delay I started off my music and participation, awards etc, but soon was diverted to tell more about the coordinator thing in techfest(which I never did, I fell sick before that so I was not present during that time), so I went off by saying what I had in mind when I had decided to add this to my resume, explaining him how I led a group of five people to optimize the budget of the gaming zone and expand the horizons (:P). After that he asked me among so much work how do I manage time. I was ready for this answer too (thanks to naman and rahul bajaj)- I replied - "I prioritize my work according to the deadlines ahead, giving maximum priority to the one whose deadline is the earliest and hence make a list accordingly". He was expressionless, didn't know what he was thinking. Well after reviewing my resume again, he said - "I am done with my part, do you have any questions?", frankly I was not prepared for this, so I said - " No sir". Surprised, he asked again in a enquiringly voice - "You don't have any questions? !!!". Then out of the blue and from the deep corner of my brain I fired the RAAMBAN(A weapon which is ultimate which can make things right at any time howsoever bad things are), I replied-" I already know a lot about Deloitte as my mama is already working in it in the Hyderabad office. Deloitte is a multinational company, 140 countries, more than 150,000 employees(I knew the exact figure(165,000) but I said it like this so that it doesn't seem to be artificial) etc." His face melted as I told him the figures which ended my encounter in the best fashion possible. So I went out with a smile on my face.
When I came back to the room, I slept and tried not to think about the result and all as my mind was undergoing too much pressure. I found out many loop holes in the interview and thought will it make such a difference. Fought hard with the emotions creeping up, roam around the room to prevent sprain in my muscles telling myself I am going to get selected in this no matter what. My heart beat was never less than 120, which resulted in a bit of high pressure and dizziness. I took long breathes to cool me down. Each second was going like a millennium. Whole life flashed before my eyes, the things I said to few 'special' people everything!. Then I was able to sleep for about half an hour, click the refresh button in my browser(for about the 1000th time in two hours), and there it was - my name among the final offers. Mission accomplished!

Story? Dream?

Saurabh slept for one and half hours only last night so when he came back to home he slept. And it was then that he had this great dream. The dream included mainly three people - Saurabh , Martha and Gloria. The dream goes like this:
Saurabh was siting near the divider of the eastern express highway on a bench by the side of a flyover(very odd but this is what he saw). Martha was siting in a nearby bench which was at a right angle to the bench in which he was siting. She was smiling, she had her hair half open & half wrapped and wore a salwar kameez. Gloria was siting far away at the other end of the flyover, but both Saurabh and martha could see her. The situation was that 'Saurabh' was coming there to meet Gloria which saurabh somehow deciphered. Martha also knew about it. Then finally 'Saurabh' came at the other end of the flyover. Gloria told Martha to come up and say 'hi' atleast. Martha was shy and smiling, but she stood up. But as soon as she stood up saurabh told her not to go and told her that he should get more punishment so don't go. Then Gloria and 'Saurabh' came running on the other side of the flyover but by this time saurabh and a new 'Martha' were siting in a car, saurabh was on front seat and she was lying down in the back seat supporting her head with her left hand to watch what was going on outside. They both were watching whats going on outside(near the flyover), by then the bench in which he was siting was gone. This new 'Martha' 's hair was completely open and wore a maroon top and blue jeans and obviously was smiling. Suddenly they saw that Gloria was fighting with some boy and then suddenly they started kissing.Then saurabh commented - "ye kya hain, kuch bhi dikhate hain, real life me aisa thodi naa hoga", then Martha said - "kya pata Gloria ke case me ho possible". Then the car which had no driving wheel or anything started moving and it felt like it was suspended in air. The scene changes to a carnival going on outside the car. Saurabh and Martha discussed various small little things about what was going on outside. They both were very happy. Then saurabh told her- "I know that this is a dream but it's worth a dream, I will never forget this dream". Then saurabh looked up and said - "Thank you God for this dream.." several times. After sometime saurabh heard a little girl's or a boy's voice telling him that it(some juice or chocolate) is present at 10 and 24 36(??). He suddenly started feeling sleepy - his view of everything was fading away in front of him as he was trying to figure out what the little child meant. He was losing all his senses but he tried to keep his eyes on Martha till the last moment, she was still smiling as earlier. And then finally saurabh woke up. Saurabh felt like crying that time but managed not to. He was in a shock for few moments because He found out in the middle of my dream that he was indeed dreaming and apart from that he still enjoyed the dream rather than thinking over it. He saw the watch it was 2:45pm (10th November)(He slept at 10:50am). Every face in the dream was blurry except Martha's. Saurabh tried to sleep again but couldn't as he was in a shock.

It feels different now....

The past few days has molded me into a complete fighter ..fighter to the deep core.. where I learned to fight sadness, depression, health, and even happiness. But after all these, it really feels different now. Though I have slept only 2-3 hrs per day on average, I don't feel sleepy. Though I haven't eaten properly for more than a week, I don't feel hungry. Though I have been angry for few YEARS, I don't feel anger now.
Everything suddenly changed. It is nearly like a dream come true. Nobody knows what is in there for me in future, but right now my head feels so lighter than it has flown to various heights of fascination.Suddenly God showered His sparkles of happiness on me. I feel relieved rather than happy.
Destiny has brought a part of my past in front of me. It shocks me now, how roads cross again in life, though this time I am not that fool anymore to fall in the trap. Suddenly you want to share your happiness with someone but unfortunately situations aren't the same. Few snap shots flash in front of your eyes reminding you of the recent past.

PS:- Even I cant understand what I have written!!!

It's Coming...

Well the time has come which will decide where will I end up from this f**king life. The time which will decide my path and destiny for next few years. Whether I will be successful in it or not that only time can tell, but surely it's coming. Though I am not that excited and not hoping much from it because I guess my resume tells much less things about me than what I am actually capable of and so the other people don't actually are able to judge me in a right way. I realized some mistakes have been too big and I had to pay a very big price for it. If I had been focused since the beginning or even if somebody would have me a hint of all this, I would have chosen an all together different path and ended up somewhere else. Though the way I have been through has given me lots of positives but somewhere made me realize I could have done better, much better. Well to keep hope is good but to see it shatter in front of your eyes and see the unfair is worse, so it's better not to have any hope at all to start. Hope is a very small word in this situation. May be I will laugh over it some day or may be I will take a lesson, who knows. But it's coming.

The Fight Goes On...

When can you say that you have become normal? There are no particular indications as such but I think when you are able to curb some of the feelings and when some songs, some piece of paper or even some topic of your project(My God !! who knew even this can hurt) doesn't effect you.
When you press the fast forward button whenever a sentimental ideal romantic scene appears during a movie,
when you are again able to bear few slow songs,
when you don't search Google for arbitrary things or don't keep looking for something related to past rigorously,
when you don't press the refresh button on the browser again and again,
when you again start taking care of your health,
when you don't fear meeting people,
when you are able to be in visible mode in chat engines,
when you start attending lectures again,
when you don't blame yourselves for everything,
when you again start liking cricket,
when you are again able to see other people in eyes,
when you stop watching sitcoms,movies etc continuously bunking lectures just to keep the mind busy,
when you again start living,
when you don't shout at your friends,
when you don't want to be alone,
.....
But the Fight goes on.....

Great song.....Great lyrics

Alvida (by Salman Ahmed-lead guitarist of Junoon-the band)

Kaise Kahon, Yeh Raaz Tujhe
Mera Dil De, Awaaz Tujhe
Yohi Rahe Tu, Mere Baad Bhi
Tujhe Sukh De, Meri Yaad Bhi

Alvida, Alvida
Alvida, Mera Saath Jo Diya
Mere Dost, Shukria
Alvida, Alvida

Kaise Kahon Yeh Raaz Tujhe
Mera Dil De, Awaaz Tujhe
Yohi Rahe Tu, Mere Baad Bhi
Tujhe Sukh De, Meri Yaad Bhi


Meri Zindagi, Mein Sakoon Hai, Na Qarar Hai
Mere Paas Baas, Teri Yaad Hai, Tera Pyaar Hai

Alvida, Alvida
Alvida, Mera Saath Jo Diya
Mere Dost, Shukria
Alvida, Alvida

Teri Chahaton, Ke Rahenge Aise,Silsilay, Hain Kathan Magar
Koi Mere Jaisa, Tujhe mile

Kaise Kahon, Yeh Raaz Tujhe
Mera Dilde, Awaaz Tujhe
Yuhi Rahe Tu, Mere Baad Bhi
Tujhe Sukh De, Meri Yaad Bhi

Alvida, Alvida
Alvida, Mera Saath Jo Diya
Mere Dost, Shukria
Alvida, Alvida

My playlist

Right now my current playlist includes the following songs:-

- When your mind's made up -ONCE ...Great song
- If you want me - ONCE ...
- Falling slowly - ONCE ...
- Naa koi - Mirage OC ... :)
- Alvida - Salman Ahmed ...
- Naa jaane - Mirage OC ...
- Saara jaahan - Mirage OC ...
- How to save a life - Fray ...
- Socha hain - Rock on! ...
- Tum ho to - Rock on! ( Favourite! among all rock on songs!!)

OC - Original Composition

Naa jaane

Naa jaane dil me hain yeh kaisi aarzoo
Kyun puche mann har dum ye sawaal tu

Shaamo ke rang ho naa jaye bekaabu
Subah ki parchayiyon ke piche tu

Dil me hain ek kaafir sa toofan
Wo chehra kyun chhode naa zubaan

Wo meethi yaadon ka tha ek karva
Choti si par dil ki gehri dastaan

Kyun main ye jaanu naa manzil pehchanu naa
Kyun main ye jaanu naa manzil pehchanu naa

Manzil pehchanu naa... Manzil pehchanu naa

These are the lyrics of a new song Apoorv wrote and I liked it very much, and I like the tune too after addition of chords.. Still incomplete but I love it. :P If anyone is interested in the chords they are Bm Am Bm Em and C Bm C Bm ... And Am Em Am Em... too many minors hehe :P I love Am and Em...

PS:- No post scripts in these post :P (ooops!!!)

Perseverance succeeds.... :)

Well this was only a chapter in my moral science book in class 5th ,11 years back(my memory :P), but it is so true. Perseverance means trying again and again or holding on to some course of action to complete some task or anything. These two words had so much effect on me during that time that I still remember the words till now. Well long ago in my blog I mentioned that I use my blog as a messenger to someone or as a punching bag. And when I use to give out a message I use it good.
Sometimes some people don't understand how they look when they behave like someone who they aren't or keep things inside them( Eg:- Minisha Lamba's character in bachna ae haseeno :P , I love those parts of the movie :P , now I know from where do the story writers get inspired- ' real life' :P).So they need to be shown what they look like by not being themselves. They try to act things out but deep inside they are still that original human being, That some people included me too for last few weeks until I realized it's terrible to act things out and not being one self. But I guess finally or may be very soon the former purpose of my blog has done the job in sending a message. In fact it has been like - "Ek teer se do nishane" - and the nishana has been good at least for my case.So trying again and again has helped and certainly perseverance succeeds.
This doesn't means (as it may seem to someone) that the things I have written are all fake and untrue. It's true by every word and I don't care if someone believes it or not because this is what is ME, I know who I am and that is enough for me to live with. People can have opinions , judgments and what not about me but I simple don't care.
Sorry mom , sis (who cared not to fight on bhai duj to make me feel special that day :P) for unnecessary shouting and being angry for no reason involving you.
Thank you mummy (angel):P, frnds..!! for support when I needed the most.
Now I need to apply the perseverance thing on other things like CAT(no hope left at all with 15 days left, long time I studied for it :P), endsems :( (don't know what is going on in any subject as I have broken all records of bunking classes by anyone at any level :P), placement (although I hate doing standard old jobs but still I need money to do more important things which I like so I need a job :P). As you have heard that picture ke end me sab kuch thik thak ho hi jaata hain , I hope even if I screw up on these things , it ends well because all's well that ends well.(Yup this is also true along with all that's well ends :P).
PS:- These story writers , they just steal real life characters and stories , shit I can't make a movie on a part of my life :P, they even steal part of real life character's name :P .
PPS:- Blog War's over I guess.. :P Yippeee...!!
PPPS:- I wake up as the Lonely September ends , Happy November !!
PPPPS:- Uff too many post scripts...

Behind every successful man there are some women... :P

Well you might have heard the saying - "Behind every successful man there is a women" , but the title is the modernized version of the saying. Well I will explain you the logic behind it. Well we all know the old saying - Girls = Evil ( don't know? , wait I will explain this also, Look we know Girls = Time*Money..(1) , also Time = Money...(2) , from (1) and (2) we get Girls = Money^2...(3), but we also know that money is the root of all evil i.e money = sqroot(Evil)..(4), so from (3) and (4) we get Girls = Evil.. Hence proved .. :P ), so they somehow manage to enter one man's life and bring all evils and devils etc to their life. Now due to those women the man learns a lesson that never to run behind women or even fall into the trap of any women. In earlier ages the men learned the lesson faster because there was no orkut, no mobile phone,no great access to net due to which they were not able to contact more women. But nowadays due to all this shit, men fall into trap again and again and finally learn a lesson at a later stage but the ones who come out of all this finally learn the formula of success i.e not to fall in trap of women and achieves success with flying colors :P . So , Behind every successful man there are some women , hence proved :P ..hehe

PS:- Sorry s***y,a**i, a***i, sh*****i -sorry re :P ,I had to do this.. khair mummy don't u worry u r an angel not any girl :P... and .. I will write a for post too sometime .. :) (Every name in the list ends with the same syllable sound? :P)

PPS:- Well well well guess what today is Halloween , so happy Halloween to all women, }:) ...hehehe .. long live Halloween ... hihihihahahahuhuhahaha.. (};))

It's still raining..(2)

Well yes , the most awaited post of all time ( :P ) has finally come. In the previous 'it's still raining' post I said I will reveal why I gave this title. Well the reason will come through but first let me continue.
Well firstly I owe my apologies to shivpur guys who also joined us later in our internship period and enjoyed like hell during birthday celebrations and music get together. As I am bad at remembering names - I remember the name of only one guy from shivpur - Shibu - who is a great singer and plays the guitar too with a nice taste of music. If you talk about faces -I remember each one of them. I can never forget.
**T has induced in me the quality of expecting less from people and places so I had no expectations from my internship too. But as it turns out - that time was the best time ever. I met such great guys and developed such spontaneous friendships and memories that made leaving jamshedpur really tough. There have been few people who have made a mark in my life permanently and I would like to talk about them individually.

BHASKAR
Well he was my project partner, one of a kind of case as no one else had project partners, I guess I was lucky :). He is a very focused and extremely dedicated guy - be it project or be it Girls, he will fight till the very end of his blood drops to achieve the fullest. It's extremely tough to say no to him as he somehow manages to let things go his way by debating for what he is saying. He is clever like a fox especially in case of girls as he manages to analyze and study the likes and dislikes of a girl and then leave that girl completely surprised and all happy with an unexpected gift( Man I remember sunflowers and coffee beans!!! and also spying on you with my feeble mobile camera hehe!!...). Well he taught me a lot of things out of his own experience in life which had been very useful. And finally his favorite color is white !!! Every time it is a special occasion he wears his full sleeved white shirt (not T-shirt!) and then moves on happily. He was also my guitar shishya to whom I gave some sincere guitar lessons even when the lights went off(I used a mobile phone light ..baap re!) Well you cannot describe a whole person here in few words, you will just have to share some time to know a person better. He was the villain opposite to me in the short movie we made there.

SIDDHARTH ( " LOVE GURU " )
Well well well , meet the love guru , siddharth ajith, he understands this phenomena in it's most modern forms and understands the situation much before time to give out solutions and cautions( I remember how your prediction about Bhaskar's case came out to be so true hehehe!! ). He is a die hard fan of vidya balan because she is a mallu and of course he is too. He doesn't likes any icons or anything on his laptop's desktop and uses the standard default My music and My video folder to keep his collections that too alphabetically :P.He says that he was a gay once but became normal somehow(:P).Whenever we used to be in the same team we used to open the innings in a smashing manner( ohh! cricket in GT1 , I miss it :(, he used to call me soham ali khan pataudi (because my name resembles soha ali khan hehe!!) ). And finally his PJ's and knowledge about hindi music and films ( he was competitor in that),he knew which movie had which music director and interesting trivia about each one of them ,and his PJ's , my god , one of them is " jinke ghar sheeshe ke hote hain wo... wo..wo.. light jalake kapde nahi badalte..." (:P) .He was the director of the movie and seriously has a great sense of direction.Always keep smiling and enjoying dude !!

VIVEK PATESHWARI (aka PATY)
Well this is Paty , our own paty, well the most important thing about him is his accent, whenever he sings "zara si dil me de jagah tu" , he replaces the 'z' with 'j', he is a guy who very much is moved my tempo (or enthu in more common words). If someone or something gives him the tempo to do a particular thing he will give out his best to do it.He has infinite contacts of girls across the whole country but doesn't know how to use them to his own benefits. Well at the beginning he was the one who was the most enthu in getting information about girls in our intern batch and in jamshedpur but as time passed he gave up or in his words lost the tempo. Well I thought he is a straight guy until one day when I came to know that he went to a date with a guy to jubilee park !!! hehehe.. where he and the guy clicked photos near the flower trees and plants!!! more hehehe..Well he is too much fond of taking photos and pictures ( of himself :P), so wherever he may roam , he takes his digital camera with him. Well it is because of his digital camera that we were able to shoot out whole film. He was the editor of the movie and gave guest appearance as a guitarist in the movie :P ...

Well apart from them I also met few great people like Ramakant(maha love guru) , Pawanva , Pratyush , Pranit , Morahari , Pranava (B))(heroine :P), shibu ,lota and many more.

Bhaskar , Sid , Vivek and me were truly krazzy4 in every sense. Crazy stuffs we did hehe..
Well now - why the title- well it's nothing too mysterious or something. The explanation goes like this - When I left jamshedpur - that night it was raining .... and when I arrived - it was raining here in mumbai too- though the place was different , situation different , I was not there in mumbai, I was way back in front of the gate of GT1 hostel waiting for the bus to arrive to take me inside the plant. .It was raining memories in my mind and still is!.Then something woke me up from the day dreaming - it was the car which came to take me back to home from LTT to Kharghar.

Odds and Evens

In my life at **T, a repeating function has been going on with a period of two years. It's like - my first and third year were the best times whereas the second and the fourth year are just the opposite with life reaching close to hell..well fourth is still not over.. :)..But in these hell second and fourth year periods, there have been some great achievements which throws the worries of those times into a garbage bin. During second year- we composed the song - Rokoise - which still fascinates me with it's composition and feel, I started Saara Jahaan- which requires no words to describe it, people remember that song even when we performed just the beginning of the song badly in mood indigo, all because of the beauty and the feel associated with the song.I met mummy - Sam - who has always been there by my side.
Well after that in fourth year we moved one step further and decided to record a song properly. We decided it to be Saara Jahaan, we got contacts of few people who can help us and then finally recorded it( though finishing touches are required). Well now wherever I may go, howsoever I may end I have this song with me which is my own creation(of course alok and apoorv's too :P), own property which no one can take away from me. This recording is one of my greatest achievement in life but it is only the beginning :).When I hear it on my home theater all the devils and evil spirits of fourth year just die out. BUT...
Picture abhi baaki hain ! :P (Next semester abhi baaki hain !! :P )

PS:- I forgot to say thank you to one important person in my previous post - My Blog...hehe :P..so true is the title of the blog - Life ...MY way.. - It's just life but MY way... :)

Light

Have you ever felt that heaviness when you have to hide something from others and take it all on your own to fight the crisis of your life? Have you ever prevented people around you to know what actually is going on in life so that they don't get involved in it? Well that feeling kills from inside. It has been killing me recently but not any more. Finally I was able to cut that out when I let my heart open to a few people. I guess the people with whom I shared already knew something was wrong with me ,but the people nearby me were unaware of anything going wrong with me. In general I don't like sharing my problems with anyone because I hate being a source of tension in someone's life but I couldn't control and so I had to pour it all out. I am so much thankful to them that they helped me out of the situation, it feels good to know that few people are still there on whom I can count on and share my problems. After all this I feel very light and happy, and entered a don't care state in which I can ignore everything.
I am thankful to Sam (mummy), Bhaskar , Sid(Love guru) , Apoorv , A**i for listening to me and my shouting :), I guess distance never is a problem in maintaining a friendship if at all there is a friendship. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel now.It's time to move on to things which are really important than the less relevant idiotic things involving idiotic "THINGS" (:) devil inside!).Yay! Now I will enjoy this phase because I don't know how long will it exist. The wheel is turning now. :)

PS:- Yay!
PPS:- Repeating same mistakes has become a habit :P

'Has' always bacche!!!(Best testimonial Ever )

As i said earlier,d mre i cme to knw abt him d mre i ll write abt him.
One thing i want others to knw is that till u actually be frns wid him u cn never really meet the real SOHAM!nd till then he'l jst be another gr8 singer with "gr8" sense of humor.Bt meet the real him nd then u'll come to knw that ur opinions wr either wrng or u jst knew 1% of him
he is someone who is nt an escapist like most of the ppl in the game of life!he actually faces the situation, no matter wht it takes away frm him! sum ppl who actually feel that he's an enemy to them shud rethink and meet him again,then u'l realize that he's nt an enemy bt a well wisher who is jst too practical
he is sumone hwo cn never do wrng to nyone no matter hw bad u behave wid him.once he calls u a frnd he'll be there fr u the vry moment u need him even if u abused him a day back!a punchin bag in every sense of the word
its jst nt everyday that u meet ppl like him.he really is a gem of a person.Down to earth so simple(yet so complicated).


PS: - thank you so much mummy(http://www.sam-smilingasalways.blogspot.com/).... I will always 'has' as u said...

11th July 2009

What is so special about it this date to write a post about it? Well nothing is special in this date, it will be just a day in someone's life who will be born, someone will die, someone will get a promotion, someone will get a job, someone will move on to a totally different environment from where he/she is, someone will meet a accident and what not. This day can be the doom's day too.. :) ..But yes I am no astrologer to tell you that.
PS:- If we write the date in British standard form of writing date,for example 20th June 2008 will be 20/6/08, someone of you may understand what is the date all about.

HappYness....exists or exits ?

Life has been a great turning wheel for me, turning day and night , days and weeks bringing in new phases of life with it. Sometimes life becomes all gloomy and dark when nothing seems important , you lose your way and find yourself at crossroads unable to decide where to go , whereas , sometimes it becomes all happy and starry when everything , every event , every moment seems so dreamy that you forget about the rest of the world and start living in that dreamland. This is not uncommon, everyone faces it and knows it very well. The best thing about the "happy" phase is you become positive towards things and your viewpoint changes from pessimistic to optimistic. But as expected it has side effects too because when the wheel turns to the other side it becomes difficult to cope with the changes. Everything then seems so depressing that the thing which used to bring a smile on your face actually brings tear to your eyes. The optimistic attitude fails and you automatically turn in to a pessimistic. You become a totally different person than the person before. You then learn a lesson in life about what to do and what not to do in life, how to act safe so that this doesn't happens again in your life. Every normal human being would take a lesson from it and act safe but not me. I am the big fool who forgets about all the lessons learned when the happy phase comes back in life.I start assuming that this happy phase will never end and that I will never repeat the mistakes again. And you know what I repeat the same old mistakes again and again to force my wheel to turn my life back to that gloomy phase where again I have to start thinking over again about where I stand, what am I doing, where am I going?,all these questions and queries don't help in any way and pushes me further into the deep corners of the phase.
I remember watching the movie " pursuit of happyness" ,that movie totally moved me and my thoughts , it told me that we always pursue for happiness in life and that's what keeps us moving, we actually can never be happy but can only pursue for it and dream about happiness.I hope I realize it soon that happiness doesn't exists for me but always exits from my life.
PS:- BEWARE!!! Don't believe in what I am saying , I am a very very bad person. Reason:- previous post.

**T

No no no don't worry I am not writing anything abusive or adult content material in this post. In fact it is a very important issue or rather a warning message to all my fellows who are studying in same "engineering institute" as mine - now my fellows would have surely understood what the post is about. Well we all use asterisks to cover up something which can be a abuse to someone or a group of people.Some of the commonly used abuses are - f**k , M**** C***, etc. But the one in the title is a new addition to all these. I will explain it with a help of simple story.
Recently I and one of very old friends met( I met him after 12 years, let me call him V). I and he decided to meet other childhood friends who lived here in mumbai ( say N and S). So I decided on a plan and met N on route to my home. Then V , I and N suddenly decided to give S a surprise by visiting her college.I was a bit reluctant at first but seeing the enthusiasm in V's eyes I agreed. So we went to her college ( I somehow remembered what sector and all it was - my memory :) ) and sat in canteen. We were waiting and waiting and then she finally arrived and was shocked to see the three of us siting in the college canteen. Then we were chit chatting about our normal day to day things unless the unexpected happened , something which was feared the most , suddenly the doom arrived , the birds flew away , the glasses shattered ,mountains roared, earth cracked , dogs barked -- V uttered the three letter word **T -- ohhhhhh! my God. As soon as he uttered those words we stopped him at that very instant from saying anything further and told him not to ever use that three letter word for it is forbidden to use it outside the realms of my "engineering institute". Those evil three words -- If you use them you will be looked down upon as an insect , a parasite , a bug and what not, whose only job is not to destroy people's life. As he was new here , he was pardoned and given a last warning of not to utter again.
This anecdote clearly depicts the ferocity of those evil three letters. So fellows beware and be alert not to utter as those three letters have destroyed many life, killed many , and has the potential for more damage that anyone can ever imagine.

PS:- If you don't understand the head and tail of this post , don't worry , I don't expect you to understand. But I know few of you have understood :) . On a different note - V's trip to mumbai counted really well , I wish he gets selected for GD and PI sessions too so that he can come back and we can enjoy like we did that day. :) Keep smiling V :).

Trust is must

There is a very famous saying said by whom I don't know - "Change is the only constant in the universe". Well this is just a saying, how much of it is true I don't know. For me, it is a mixed response. I think some things do constantly change with time but few basic things or characteristics remain the same. Well I am not writing this to judge whether change is constant or not but to ponder over what changes me most. What makes my mood swing from gloomy to happy, what makes a permanent impact on my character or viewpoint about something, what makes me change my decision to follow something or not. I guess my past life has most of the influence in all these. Whatever I have experienced right from childhood has effected me and I have changed myself accordingly to be happy and peaceful. Some of these changes have been harsh especially when you have to kill the child in you and face the real mean world where people think only about themselves and no one is no one's friend.Earlier trusting a person was lot easier than it is now. It is now next to impossible to completely believe what a person is saying is correct especially when there has been several occasions when you have been merely fooled by trusting and believing the person in front of you. So the solution to this problem which I figured out is to be ready and be prepared to get fooled or deceived by anyone anywhere so that it hurts less when you actually face it. Though this is not the only solution , this is a very optimistic and peaceful solution to the problem. Other solution would be not to ever trust anyone and be alone in your world or yet another solution can be revenge - give them back what they gave you. But I will stick with the first solution only because someone told me there is no point hating anyone which I realized is true. I place trust way over love , in fact love is just non existent without trust. If you don't trust your lover how can you imagine loving. Well all of the above is just crap , don't pay much attention, go on with your life and be happy because life is short. Too much to do in very less time.

I L L U S I O N ??

DO we tend to create a world around us ? Do we suffer from some illusions ? I have been wondering over such illusions for a while. The example I take here is very odd but still it explains my situation. Well to tell the truth I haven't attended any classes for three and the half weeks ( today I had to attend because of some important work ), I don't know why but I didn't want to go, didn't want to see those same old faces , so called friends , hypocrites etc. But well this is what is life, I have to "adjust" and "adapt" to the situation whatever be the case.I am waiting eagerly for the day I am out of this engineering institute, I will be the happiest person on earth that day, feels choked around here. I go home regularly and keep my parents in a illusion that my life is going fine and I am happy so that they don't get involved in all this mess. At home I find a totally different environment - an environment where people support each other, help each other, share things unlike my college where people try to pull each other down every moment in every sphere of life.
I was totally in control of my life unless few things happened which gave me immense hope that whatever be my situation in here , I have friends and people to whom I can TALK. As I said earlier I had no hope from Jamshedpur but later turned out to be one of the best time ever in my life when people where not stabbing each other on back but actually sharing, helping, supporting each other. The Euphoria created by Jamshedpur lasted for a while after the internship also but vanished finally as usual. One must have heard the saying- All's well that ends well, but in my case it is All that's well ends.
But still hope is not lost ,it is never lost (as someone induced in me),I will keep trying liking my life as long as I can. I am also eagerly waiting for the doom's day to come as I want to see the end of this world, the end of everything that we take for granted, who knows that day reality comes the closest to us for which the whole mankind is searching for.

Naa koi ...

I don't know why but I am totally in love with this song...This song was recorded on 20th August 2008..It was written by me..music is by me and my friend Alok..The lyrics are nothing special but means a lot to me..may be one day I will laugh over what I have written but this song gets me a adrenaline rush..others may find it very ordinary song and it may be..but not for me especially after having figured out a video for it if we ever make it..The song is available here - http://www.esnips.com/web/soham or at my friend Alok's blog - http://iitbalok.blogspot.com .The recording is a mobile recording so it is not perfect..rhythm and vocals by me , lead and bass by Alok.
The lyrics for the song go like this :-

Naa koi hain naa koi tha
tere siva jaane jaa...(2)

Jaan bhi de du
Dil hain kya
Tu hain mera jahaan

Tu jo haa kar de
main kho jayu
tu jo naa kar de
main mar jayu

Zindagi me tum mile to
mil gayi khushiyan
Tu hi saansein tu hi baatein
tu hi meri duniya

Aa bhi jaa tu
kyun hain khafa
tu hain mera jaahan

Height of Idealism and foolishness

The one who is intelligent , smart , takes care of my family ..who is a prankster...who is jolly and sporty ...doesn't keeps anything inside her heart ...wants to share the most simple and weirdest thing with me..fights with me to make my annoying habits go ...smiles whenever I sing a song to make her happy ..who mixes with my family very easily..the one who helps me forget my past..whose one touch on my forehead gives way to all my headaches and worries..and the one who understands the beauty of music like I do.. and the one who exists only in my mind and not in reality...

Phobia of....

Fear as we know governs much part of our life, one can say that he/she doesn't fear anything but he/she might fear the most weirdest thing on earth of which one can only imagine. I will not say I don't fear anything, there are a few things which I would certainly like to keep distance from. Well talking of fear, the first thing that comes in my mind is my song- saara jahan. The starting of the song ( as mentioned by someone who listened the song for the very first time) sends shivers along the spine and simulates a feeling at par with fear. One day I was listening to this song on my home theater when the weather was very gloomy and dark(cloudy along with lighting) and the whole song's feel resonated with the ambiance, that's when I realized that we have made a really good song.Well leaving further discussion on the song I return back to the topic of fear. Fear may develop out of ignorance, experience or hormonal misbehavior. For me fear generally develops out of experience, hopefully I have no hormonal disturbance and I don't fear due to ignorance ,I get excited instead. Here are some of the phobias I have

Phobia of needles - Belonephobia
Phobia of crowd - Ochlophobia
Phobia of child birth - Tocophobia
Phobia of beautiful women - Venustraphobia
Phobia of women - Gynophobia
Phobia of marriage - Gametophobia
Phobia of loneliness - Autophobia

Few Drops of Bliss

As we all know, festival season is here, most of us are in a mood to enjoy and let their worries go away but don't know why I am not able to do that. The main thing I like about festival is the interaction between the people i.e finding new friends, meeting old relatives etc. My "masi"and "mausa" have come to our place, my cousin sister has also come who studies in 8th standard. Well as for us Durga Puja is the main festival of all, we don't remain in our home for most part of the day, don't make food for lunch or dinner etc. But my college -Engineering institute doesn't provides me that freedom to go home and follow all these traditions but somehow I managed to bunk the lectures and come home. So we all( 7 people in all) went to see programs during this durga puja at various places like vashi, juhu, chembur etc. I was able to go only to vashi. I went there for two major reasons - KK and sonu nigam. I woke up monday morning at 6:00, told mom to prepare breakfast as I was going back to my "engineering institute". At 6:30 I went to kitchen and told mom I am not going, I am bunking the lectures, I gave the reason that my "masi and mausa" are coming so, but my mom became suspicious( mothers know everything :P)and told me you could have told me earlier but it's fine. Well yes my mom's suspicion was not invalid as my mom told me earlier that KK is performing live in vashi's durga puja pandal, and also my mom knows how big a fan I am of KK and his songs. Don't know what happened but I took this decision by listening to my heart and my instincts(I have started using them more recently).I couldn't resist but stay at home. I didn't sleep then, I took my guitar and started singing a few songs of KK which I love the most- Alvida, Tu hi meri shab, Ajab si, Ashayein, Tu hain aasmaan, 'Khuda Jaane', etc. Continued till 11, untill I realised that I haven't slept much last night( 3 hrs), so I went back to sleep and woke up at 1:30(:P). Well leaving all unimportant details, finally I went to watch KK live at vashi fighting with rain and mud. The show started, KK came on stage, huge roar, deja vu of mood indigo 2006, the show ended. And I was amazed. I was in a different world. During the concert I was the only one in my neighborhood shouting and singing(I was singing harmonies to what KK was singing so I got more stares), but who cares, at that time I wished that if it is possible that I go up the stage and sing with him ,but obviously who would listen to me, singing(:P). Those were my few drops of bliss in a sea of despairity,a spark of light in the sky of darkness and gloominess, a soothing fragnance in an odorless and dead life. I started dreaming of singing alongside KK, I know how strange is this, but dreaming is not a crime, we all have our dreams and percieve our dreamland.By the way,the most strange and weird thing is that we find other's dreams to be too unrealistic and impossible(Like you might be feeling about my dreams right now).But it doesn't matters to me.
Well returning back to the main point i.e Durga puja in vashi. After I watched KK live, I came to know that sonu nigam is performing day after tommorow. Sonu nigam, just the name is enough to introduce him, the most versatile singer ever I have seen, he can sing anything, from hardcore classical to hip shaking dance numbers. Like KK, his attitude towards music is what I like the most. So Wednesday evening I left from my engineering institute for my home and after strugling and fighting a long way, I managed to reach home( In between I found out that I have lost 3kgs in just few weeks, fastest rate of dip in my weight in 3 years, don't know why it happened, may be something or the other). Again leaving all details, I went to see sonu nigam live, he came on stage, huge roar, deja vu of last durga puja, show ended. Again I was left amazed. What a talent, what a voice, what a versatility, he showed to us how he is different and how he can move the crowd. Like earlier I was the only one in my neghborhood shouting and singing( this time not harmonies but the actual tune).This was again that drop, that light, that fragnance which keeps me alive inspite of all the worries and despairities of my life.

Compromises, Sacrifices and Anger !!!

Now I realize how important it is to have a mum friend like my blog, who would only listen to me and not point out mistakes and give counter arguments and statements instead. I have heard people say change is the only constant in life. Things change , people change, character changes, and what not changes. Some changes are good and are readily acceptable when they give out better results than the previous case but what about those which have created just non sense and have killed the spirit of the thing. Until now I felt that compromising a few things, making a few sacrifices for the sake and well being of a common event is tolerable but when people take you granted for making a sacrifice or make a compromise, things get out of control for me and I cannot handle them. Then I feel it's better to get out of thing completely rather than doing that thing by compromising and sacrificing. Writing is a very nice way to channelize your anger and really, it helps. It lightens up your mind and heart. You feel very comfortable. Well these type of situations give me infinite courage and guts, I can dare to do anything or say anything to anyone, fear doesn't exists then. That is the time when something exception comes up from within, when my real self begins to discover the reality behind everything and everyone. It deepens the search for my real self, the search for SOHAM (swa + aham ,meaning-> I am the one who is equal to the greatest truth in the world)

Era of Arguments

For the last few months, life has been full of mind bogling situations, controversies, prejudices, heated arguments. Some arguments led to a peaceful end with new bondings and stronger relationships, but some has dented few relationships in such a way whose scars have made a permanent mark. Few arguments were about what is right and what is wrong, few were about accusations placed on me and many more. Though I am not a very big fan of arguments, but I was squeezed in between them for one reason or the other. I believe I should not waste my time on arguments as all these are just fruitless, they just help in increasing blood pressure and hatred among people. I am a type of person who doesn't wants to hurt a person's feeling unneccesarily and I find happiness in happiness of people close to me or people around me even if I don't know them at all. In fact I love bringing a smile on a stranger's face whenever I get a chance. Well some people take it in a wrong way and accuse me of showing off but I don't mind it because I know myself and my intentions towards what I am doing and I don't need anyone's help in judging that. I always care about others and their feelings because I think it is in my genes, I can't help it. I have the ability to absorb anything people say about me and I don't feel angry about it but it takes a bit of patience when someone says something about someone else who may be close to me or may be a stranger as well, I can't tolerate it. I don't impose my likings on someone else neither do I say anything negative about someone's likings and dislikings. Liking and disliking are generated by instincts, if you like something you are bound to get attached with it and if you dislike you will never go close to that thing. In my case things are complicated, I may dislike a thing at the first encounter but eventually may start liking it due to some characteristic of that thing or other. This happens a lot with me. I compromise with my likings and dislikings a lot for happiness of others which in turn gives happiness to me. I always extract the positive out of things and discard the negative things from them, this is how I have led my life from childhood. I feel it is obviuos that I can't get everything of my choice everytime so whatever positive I am getting I must appreciate it and keep it in one corner of my mind. My actions and deeds always have an aim, that may be to make myself happy or make others happy or may be also to send a message to someone or make someone realize peacefully. Well on an ending note, arguments are a part of life, we have to live with it.

Making memories

I believe life is short, we all have our good times and bad times, sometimes we can cope with the bad ones and sometimes not. Life has its own constraints and bounds which effect our decisions and priorities, someone might disagree with this statement but I don't and I will not. Sometimes life seems so flawless and so full of levity that we don't complain anything about it, on the contrary sometimes it backfires letting us know we cannot get everything. But among these extreme situations of happiness and sadness, I find a thing common( at least in my case), I stop caring about the world around, what they think, what they are doing,will do and so on. When I am very happy about my life, it feels like - now who can stop me, I am in full control and I am loving it and when I am sad it feels- world! go to hell, I can handle myself, don't pity on me. Well whatever I have written above is all waste, now I will return to the main point i.e. Making a memory.
From all the experience and encounters of the various situations I have been through in my life, I learned that I always spoil the present thinking of the past and future, which in turn becomes a past. I tried to get rid of it but nothing helps. I cannot suddenly forgive someone who has betrayed me and forget him/her. So I found out a solution to it so that I can be happy for the maximum amount of time of my life. The solution is not so easy to implement because you need to kill most of your emotions for it. First thing is - One shouldn't expect anything from anyone. Secondly, remember that life is just once chance, don't spoil it by hating people and planning retaliation against them. Third and the most important point- Take each moment of your life as a MEMORY, you can make a good memory for yourself by following the above two points and it's in your hands, how you want to remember this moment, so that when you look backward, you shouldn't feel sad about it, instead you must be able to say- "Wow, what a great time I had". I am already following this policy and this helps me a lot. Even if a memory is a bitter one, I don't want to remove it from my life because I don't want an incomplete view of my life when I look back. If someone tells me to remove all the bad memories from my brain, I will not let them do it. Those bad memories taught me a lot in life. Most of my emotions are now dead, I have not cried for a very long time, i just feel sad and nothing else, I have learned how to act happy so that other people don't lose the smile on their face, I have learned to act as if I don't know anything about what someone did, I have learned to absorb anything which comes my way,I have learned to keep other people out of my problems in life, though sometimes the changes hurts but this is what life is all about, collecting memories, which in my opinion is my biggest asset of all. The memories of sacrifices , foolishness , liking , hating , talking , laughing, crying , singing , dancing , and many more. I am surrounded by people who don't believe in this thing but I don't mind it.
Now to chill your mind after reading all this weird and arbitrary things, I will tell you a story of one chudel and two crows, and the title of the story is love story 2050 :).
Two crows, one named God and other named fragnance were living happily when suddenly one night a chudel named kajol arrived, she approached the two crows and obviously she was hungry, her tongue waiting for some tasty dinner which was reflected in her eyes. So the crows had no choice but to make that chudel happy.So they talked to each other and told the chudel that they will be ready for dinner in few minutes. They decided that they will not make the chudel unhappy in any way so started preparation. So after 5 minutes or so, they came out, the chudel with all her hungry eyes watched them come, the chudel couldn't control the hunger and in that hurry she approached too fast and the MAGGI 2 minute noodles toppled from the hands of fragnance but God somehow managed to hold it before it falls and gives it to the chudel who eats it with all pleasure. Finally the chudel says thank you for the dinner and leaves. Moral of the story:- God saved the day !!
PS:- Sorry for the story :P
PPS:- I found out that the main lead in the movie Phoonk was played by a crow.!!!

Few things I will never forget ....

- Kalepan me apnapan
- Blackforest pastry
- Green God
- Brown
- Plain white T's
- 160by2.com
- Love story 2050 ( main hero - kauwaa (crow))
- 1 mark , 0 mark
- Churlish , Copius , Debauched , Grotesque
- Role playing
- 5th September 2012
- 28th december plane landing in airport
- 2 mahine badi
- 22nd august 2008
- 172nd Day of a year(if the year is a leap year)
- Smile (1/4th of the face)
- sau tariff
- meri value hi nahi hain
- Idiotuhh
- 95 percentile declaration
- 7th sem
- java , GRE 27th October
- CCD wale mama
- A boy at vashi station
- cute pic
- I luv fighting :P
- cms
- jol khabo ... ki...
- Aao milo chale
- Let me take you there
- A lonely september
- Teri ore
- Khuda jaane
- How to save a life
- Meow RJ
- Donkey
- Chota bheem
- Cute Monkey
- Ghamandi khargosh
- hul pari
- Garhwali
- Chudel kajol
- Jab we met ki kareena
- Jab we met ka shahid
- Ranbir kapoor
- Imran khan
- Farhan akhtar
- Rock on !
- IPL wala college
- IIT
- Lonavala
- Goa
- New day has come - by celine dion
- 10-12 hours
- BC sutta
- if D= 13 then D-11 = 2 + 0 = 20
- 22*22= 484
- hyperbola
- Naa koi (a song by us )
- FORGIVE BUT NEVER FORGET

Ambigram of my name ... Thank you so much

It's still raining....

XYZ is a normal iitian ,the following is a conversation which took place sometime in April 2008.
XYZ:- hey soham , intern kahan laga ?
me:- TATA Steel me ..
XYZ:- WHAT!!! jamshedpur me ???
me :- haan ...
XYZ:- Baap re.. koi naa .. me going to .....(some damn country)
me:- good for u ..
XYZ:- Good luck ( in a taunting manner)..
This is a good example of the situation I faced before going to jamshedpur. I had no expectations. My to-do list had only studies and music in it.I accepted my fate and went to jamshedpur(jam). As I told earlier it gave a essence of jodhpur(sun city) , it was very sunny , humid and fresh when I arrived. We( IIT bombay people) were the second batch as interns, IIT kgp and BIT mesra people have already arrived and their one week was already over. IT BHU and IIT kanpur people also joined us in second batch.We all used to live in a hostel named SNTI GT Hostel-4. Till then no girls were present in any batch but I didn't care, it was not in my to-do list(:P). First week we had lectures regarding safety in SNTI ( shavak nanavati technical institute),which was being delivered by Y.RAMAKOTY and we used to say " Whyyy ramakoty?? ", we couldn't hear what he used to speak but who cared, by this time we were becoming quite comfortable in hostel - AC TV room , Games room, Mess ( seriously man it's tough to find such a good food ), and of course new friends, from iit Bombay ( Pawan , Kushal , Pratyush , Ramakant, Ashlesh(lota) , Abhinav , Abhishek ) , kgp ( Sanat Pandey( hum :P ), priyanshu , reddy ) , bhu ( Dharmendra , Anuj ) and Kanpur (Rakesh, Anuj seth , nanavati , shashikant). We started playing cricket (me after 3 years) , football and most frequently Table Tennis. Finally after the end of first week we were alloted our projects, I was allotted in CRM( cold rolling mill).Few kgp people were already working in that place, Siddharth Ajith , Bhaskar Rakshit , Sanat pandey , Gyanendra. Bhaskar was working on the same project which was allotted to me, only such case in the whole intern batch. So I was lucky , two brains would be working on my project. Initially I found them very focused in their projects so I was sincere enough too, but as time passed we became good friends. Then it was like we came to the plant only to enjoy and CRM was the ideal place for it. It had a cafeteria, only department to have such a nice one. Gyanendra has asked out a girl who was a management trainee in CRM and they used to go to CCD . Hmmm CCD , we will come to that later( lot of memories!!).

OFFICE:-
My project was on a welding machine in a continuous galvanizing line #2 (CGL#2) under Mr. V.K.Nirala (V.K.N)(Mech) , as the name suggests he was really nirala in nature. My sub-guide was Mrityunjay (M.J.)( Elec) who was young and has joined the company just two years ago. He was also a peace character , so life was very peaceful there , I used to go in his office ,listen to music ( that too metallica , iron maiden , arch enemy!! ) , drink coffee and relax in AC. We were called paid VTs( vocational trainees) and the people who have joined TATA Steel one year before us were called GTs( Graduate trainees) , apart from this there used to be Non-paid VTs also. The first meeting with one GT was in MJ’s office , her name was Vani Vatsya (Elec, BIT mesra), she was also working on the welding machine but it didn’t seem so, she was more busy with gmail and mobile rather than work . But she was cool too and used to enjoy the songs played on the comp. Later , I met three more GTs -Rahul , Pradipto and Prakhar. Rahul was the one closest to us and used to advice us why not to join TATA Steel , whether to go to IIM or not , the administrative structure of TATA Steel and what not. It was a regular routine talk of about one hour in cafeteria before actually going to the main office to work (music and relax :P). We came so close to him (we are not gay!! ) that he decided to treat us in some restaurant. Gaining the confidence from this, I also asked Vani to give a treat but she said “First the boys then me.. ”. Initially I and Bhaskar used to work in different offices , he was taking help from Ms. Shweta Sharma(Mech) as he was a mechanical guy but soon his den shifted to MJ’s office with me which led to increased interaction and I came to know more about him.

GT HOSTELs - 4 and 1 :-
The hostel was the most happening place especially due to IPL ( Indian premier league) , our daily routine consisted of only two things – preparing to watch IPL and watching IPL. IPL had a big hand in bringing the people together , the TV room used to be full all the time with clapping , shouting , booing and all stuffs. I was supporting KKR( Kolkata Knight Riders) who had a great start but couldn’t maintain the rhythm but the last match against Kings XI Punjab was worth seeing , 71 runs in last 5 overs and Ganguly & Umar gul did it. The hostel had everything – AC TV room , Mess , Games room( TT and Carrom) , Badminton court , Gym , reading room etc. Mess food was amazing – so tasty and worth the money unlike the food in IIT hostels. Seeing the TT table , I went back in time to my first year in IIT when I first took the TT bat in my hands but I haven’t played since then so I was down in form but with regular practice my form returned , similar thing happened with cricket , I was bowled in the first delivery I faced ,little did the people knew that it woke up a sleeping tiger (:D). Soon cricket became a regular routine which further resulted in bonding of the people. The best thing was that we all wanted to enjoy and no kill-joy character existed. During birthdays , we used to gather and give full-fledged bumps to the victim or as the kgp people said GPL ( G*** pe lath). Then we used to sit together and sing songs till late night ,that too with my guitar – most of the people used to be drunk which added to the fun ( three cheers to lota !! who would entertain the public with his innovative shayari). By the end of two weeks third batch has already arrived which was from NIT jamshedpur, IIT madras and IIT roorkee but they had hard time adjusting to the environment especially roorkee people , one character in roorkee batch was Rahul bahuguna whom we named PITA ( pain in the *** ), reason will come up as we move on. IIT madras and NIT jamshedpur people were cool – Tarun , Amarnath , Pranit , Morahari became close friends in due course of time. The most striking thing that happened with arrival of new batch was arrival of girls in our batch.Two each from roorkee , madras and NIT jam but least I cared as I told before. They stayed in nearby hostels GT 1 and GT 3 . We used to play cricket in GT 1 which had a nice enough ground and also access net from the hostel’s comp room. GT 3(fully girls hostel) was not far but we didn’t care much about that hostel except few people ( ramakant , reddy , pranit , morahari :P) who cared. The fun we used to have in hostel cannot be described in words here , it can only be experienced. After a long time I actually laughed from my heart and not for the sake of it.

BUS:-
We all went to the plant in a bus which was scheduled to arrive at 8:00 am at our hostel gate but never arrived at that time. Initially there was only one bus for us as the third batch didn’t arrived till then. The driver of the bus was Pandeyji , who used to wear sunglasses all the time and also had a girl-friend inspite of being married (:P). He used to keep different phones for home and girl-friend. He used to play standard hindi filmy songs which was irritating in the beginning but later we all enjoyed. Sometimes Non-paid VTs also used to come in our bus, that too girls, so people had their evil eyes on them. First one to go and talk to one of them(Frida) was our own Ramakant ( he was also with me in CRM)( playboy as we called him later or Maha love guru) . With so many eyes on them , we started teasing the two by singing songs which suited the situation ( Do dil mil rahe hain from pardes , pehla nasha pehla pyaar , hum kale hain to kya hua dilwale hain :P etc). When the new batch arrived , a second bus was also allotted to us but we didn’t want to leave pandeyji’s bus so went in that bus only. But soon the scene changed as Mr. Y.Ramakoty came and changed the route of the buses and to my despair my bus was changed , I was devastated , no masti , no music . But since we CRM people were together so we adjusted and my mobile became the source of the music in bus. Most of the girls were in our bus , but Frida was not due to which ramakant started bunking CRM and went to coke plant where she used to go. The main problem we faced in our bus was PITA( Rahul bahuguna ) who was the group leader of the third batch .He was a character in itself , he acted as if he had all the important work and was sincere, it was because of him that we hated the roorkee batch . He wanted the bus to arrive in time , the people to arrive in time , no lengthy stoppages ufff , he was becoming second ramakoty until one day we all burst on him which resulted in more bitterness between us and roorkee people.
Apart from all this , we enjoyed like kids in bus – singing , shouting , teasing girls( :P ) , listening to each other’s story ,history etc. Some boys had crush on some girls so they used to tell me to sing a song and dedicate it to that girl, first one to do that was dharmendra who had a crush on a girl named Neha sachdeva from NIT jam , so I sang the song “ Ajab si -OSO” . I used to give my mobile to them for this purpose and plug in my Ipod myself .The journey through the plant took around 45 mins which seemed nothing in such masti situation.

FEMININE SPECIES:-
Most of the engineering college guys have a common question :- “ where are girls??” , Wherever they may roam they ask this same question. So this brings us to the most interesting part of the journey. One of my friends used to say : “ ladki ka chakkar baap re baap”. I was totally in favor of this saying. Well our first feminine character came along in bus – Frida , a Non-paid VT , who hailed from rourkela. There were more non-paid VTs too but used to go directly to plant and rarely in bus. Anyways the boys had already started their fight on each one of them in their own department , unfortunately CRM had none. With the arrival of the second batch , female population had a jump. As I mentioned earlier 6 girls had arrived . Neha Sachdeva , Swati from NIT jamshedpur - Pranava boyidapu ( hehehe.. :P) and don’t know her name from IIT M , Aprajita sant and Pooja tripati from IIT R. None of them was worth talking except Pranava who had a lesser attitude problem than others. Pranit and morahari were her good friends. So I told others that she is the girl who is worth fighting for but nobody listened then and instead teased me with her name. I didn’t cared much about them but Bhaskar and sid specially went to GT 1 for bird watching and getting info about them.
Well Bhaskar and Sid were very much successful until everything reached anti-climax.
Jamshedpur also fulfilled one of my dreams of acting in a short film with me being the hero. Yes , we had the caliber and time to make a video out of the experience . There was a hero, heroine , villain , climax, anti-climax, fight scene ,date scene and what not , well till now the story has just half begun..
The title of the post may seem weird now but will be clear after my next post ..

A PAID VACATION ( JAMSHEDPUR/TATANAGAR)

I used to cross this station many a times while going to west bengal from jodhpur , I heard it is a city created by JRD tata , it is the biggest supplier of steel and all. And now I am working as an intern here. When I thought of this city , I thought of bihar and I was disgusted because of the problems faced during train journeys through bihar during my childhood , the train used to become reservation free when it entered bihar. But anyways as I had no choice ( thanks to IIT PT policy) , I had to pack my bags for Jamshedpur.My journey started on 9th May night , from Kurla in 2ND AC which was more like 3RD AC converted but the co-passengers were very nice. They never let me leave the train , let me sleep till 10 in the morning etc . I brought my guitar along here and on the way I played it too. I performed " kisine naa jaana " (self composition) in front of them and they liked it so much that they wrote the lyrics of the song in their personal diary and even my contact number and address. Then finally the destination arrived , it was like a Deja Vu to me .. as it gave me a hint of jodhpur , the city where i spent my best 6 years of life .. then i reached the hostel G.T. hostel-4 ..after reaching i was sad initially as i was all alone here ..no one to talk to etc... so i just got to my room and slept ... when i woke up , i was feeling good ..i went downstairs ...and it was then that i realised the hostel is better than my hostel in iit .. it had all the facilities ( gym , games , AC TV room )..the mess food was GOD. The TV room was the first place i went in... kolkata knight riders were playing that time.. there i met my first friend here.. abhishek srivastava ..he was from iit b only but i never met him there.. as our departments were different.Eventually i met everyone who came from iitb.. but i observed one thing that my viewpoint towards them was totally changed ..earlier i thought they will never talk to me etc..but in fact they were very helpful and even guided me to the rest of the facilities as they were in there before me ... so all of them were now great frnds of mine... i was happy ..really happy..it was a change from the usual boring life in iit b .. the people here knew nothing about my history etc so they never made me remind of it.. after 3-4 days we were assigned our projects.. i was alloted a project in CRM ( cold rolling mill).. the most peaceful place in tata steel as the name suggests( cool) under mrityunjay ..the most peaceful person in CRM.. otherwise who would allow me to hear music in frontech speakers in his personal office that too arch enemy, iron maiden , metallica in almost full volume ..(right now listening to saara jahan)..In CRM .i met two guys from iit kgp ..sid and bhaskar..they are right now my greatest pals here ... we discuss everything siting in the cafeteria of CRM ..yes the only place in tata steel to have one.. bhaskar and I are working on the same project so it is lot easier to work and do time pass in the office.. there's also a graduate trainee(G.T.) in the office..her name is vani vatsa ..who is more busy with her mobile than her work but she is cool..she understands us that we are not here to join tata steel but to do a formality of internship..i even went thru a ragging by the other GTs ..who are giving a treat to interns in CRM in a three star hotel for no reason..(:D)..There is another hostel in front of ours which was G.T. hostel no.1 ..which was a very well equipped hostel.. it has a comp room, god TV room, god mess, and more importantly a ground.. which triggered my interest in cricket..(after so many years!!!)..so i started playing there with other people from iit kgp..it-bhu..iitm..( i was bowled in the first delivery i faced..:D).. but sooner i regained my form in batting and bowling ..and i became a threat for the opposite team.. ( yeyeyeye!!! old memories!!).. rest of the story in next post !!!

PS:- very unorganised way of writing the post , but who cares :P