Behind every successful man there are some women... :P

Well you might have heard the saying - "Behind every successful man there is a women" , but the title is the modernized version of the saying. Well I will explain you the logic behind it. Well we all know the old saying - Girls = Evil ( don't know? , wait I will explain this also, Look we know Girls = Time*Money..(1) , also Time = Money...(2) , from (1) and (2) we get Girls = Money^2...(3), but we also know that money is the root of all evil i.e money = sqroot(Evil)..(4), so from (3) and (4) we get Girls = Evil.. Hence proved .. :P ), so they somehow manage to enter one man's life and bring all evils and devils etc to their life. Now due to those women the man learns a lesson that never to run behind women or even fall into the trap of any women. In earlier ages the men learned the lesson faster because there was no orkut, no mobile phone,no great access to net due to which they were not able to contact more women. But nowadays due to all this shit, men fall into trap again and again and finally learn a lesson at a later stage but the ones who come out of all this finally learn the formula of success i.e not to fall in trap of women and achieves success with flying colors :P . So , Behind every successful man there are some women , hence proved :P ..hehe

PS:- Sorry s***y,a**i, a***i, sh*****i -sorry re :P ,I had to do this.. khair mummy don't u worry u r an angel not any girl :P... and .. I will write a for post too sometime .. :) (Every name in the list ends with the same syllable sound? :P)

PPS:- Well well well guess what today is Halloween , so happy Halloween to all women, }:) ...hehehe .. long live Halloween ... hihihihahahahuhuhahaha.. (};))

It's still raining..(2)

Well yes , the most awaited post of all time ( :P ) has finally come. In the previous 'it's still raining' post I said I will reveal why I gave this title. Well the reason will come through but first let me continue.
Well firstly I owe my apologies to shivpur guys who also joined us later in our internship period and enjoyed like hell during birthday celebrations and music get together. As I am bad at remembering names - I remember the name of only one guy from shivpur - Shibu - who is a great singer and plays the guitar too with a nice taste of music. If you talk about faces -I remember each one of them. I can never forget.
**T has induced in me the quality of expecting less from people and places so I had no expectations from my internship too. But as it turns out - that time was the best time ever. I met such great guys and developed such spontaneous friendships and memories that made leaving jamshedpur really tough. There have been few people who have made a mark in my life permanently and I would like to talk about them individually.

BHASKAR
Well he was my project partner, one of a kind of case as no one else had project partners, I guess I was lucky :). He is a very focused and extremely dedicated guy - be it project or be it Girls, he will fight till the very end of his blood drops to achieve the fullest. It's extremely tough to say no to him as he somehow manages to let things go his way by debating for what he is saying. He is clever like a fox especially in case of girls as he manages to analyze and study the likes and dislikes of a girl and then leave that girl completely surprised and all happy with an unexpected gift( Man I remember sunflowers and coffee beans!!! and also spying on you with my feeble mobile camera hehe!!...). Well he taught me a lot of things out of his own experience in life which had been very useful. And finally his favorite color is white !!! Every time it is a special occasion he wears his full sleeved white shirt (not T-shirt!) and then moves on happily. He was also my guitar shishya to whom I gave some sincere guitar lessons even when the lights went off(I used a mobile phone light ..baap re!) Well you cannot describe a whole person here in few words, you will just have to share some time to know a person better. He was the villain opposite to me in the short movie we made there.

SIDDHARTH ( " LOVE GURU " )
Well well well , meet the love guru , siddharth ajith, he understands this phenomena in it's most modern forms and understands the situation much before time to give out solutions and cautions( I remember how your prediction about Bhaskar's case came out to be so true hehehe!! ). He is a die hard fan of vidya balan because she is a mallu and of course he is too. He doesn't likes any icons or anything on his laptop's desktop and uses the standard default My music and My video folder to keep his collections that too alphabetically :P.He says that he was a gay once but became normal somehow(:P).Whenever we used to be in the same team we used to open the innings in a smashing manner( ohh! cricket in GT1 , I miss it :(, he used to call me soham ali khan pataudi (because my name resembles soha ali khan hehe!!) ). And finally his PJ's and knowledge about hindi music and films ( he was competitor in that),he knew which movie had which music director and interesting trivia about each one of them ,and his PJ's , my god , one of them is " jinke ghar sheeshe ke hote hain wo... wo..wo.. light jalake kapde nahi badalte..." (:P) .He was the director of the movie and seriously has a great sense of direction.Always keep smiling and enjoying dude !!

VIVEK PATESHWARI (aka PATY)
Well this is Paty , our own paty, well the most important thing about him is his accent, whenever he sings "zara si dil me de jagah tu" , he replaces the 'z' with 'j', he is a guy who very much is moved my tempo (or enthu in more common words). If someone or something gives him the tempo to do a particular thing he will give out his best to do it.He has infinite contacts of girls across the whole country but doesn't know how to use them to his own benefits. Well at the beginning he was the one who was the most enthu in getting information about girls in our intern batch and in jamshedpur but as time passed he gave up or in his words lost the tempo. Well I thought he is a straight guy until one day when I came to know that he went to a date with a guy to jubilee park !!! hehehe.. where he and the guy clicked photos near the flower trees and plants!!! more hehehe..Well he is too much fond of taking photos and pictures ( of himself :P), so wherever he may roam , he takes his digital camera with him. Well it is because of his digital camera that we were able to shoot out whole film. He was the editor of the movie and gave guest appearance as a guitarist in the movie :P ...

Well apart from them I also met few great people like Ramakant(maha love guru) , Pawanva , Pratyush , Pranit , Morahari , Pranava (B))(heroine :P), shibu ,lota and many more.

Bhaskar , Sid , Vivek and me were truly krazzy4 in every sense. Crazy stuffs we did hehe..
Well now - why the title- well it's nothing too mysterious or something. The explanation goes like this - When I left jamshedpur - that night it was raining .... and when I arrived - it was raining here in mumbai too- though the place was different , situation different , I was not there in mumbai, I was way back in front of the gate of GT1 hostel waiting for the bus to arrive to take me inside the plant. .It was raining memories in my mind and still is!.Then something woke me up from the day dreaming - it was the car which came to take me back to home from LTT to Kharghar.

Odds and Evens

In my life at **T, a repeating function has been going on with a period of two years. It's like - my first and third year were the best times whereas the second and the fourth year are just the opposite with life reaching close to hell..well fourth is still not over.. :)..But in these hell second and fourth year periods, there have been some great achievements which throws the worries of those times into a garbage bin. During second year- we composed the song - Rokoise - which still fascinates me with it's composition and feel, I started Saara Jahaan- which requires no words to describe it, people remember that song even when we performed just the beginning of the song badly in mood indigo, all because of the beauty and the feel associated with the song.I met mummy - Sam - who has always been there by my side.
Well after that in fourth year we moved one step further and decided to record a song properly. We decided it to be Saara Jahaan, we got contacts of few people who can help us and then finally recorded it( though finishing touches are required). Well now wherever I may go, howsoever I may end I have this song with me which is my own creation(of course alok and apoorv's too :P), own property which no one can take away from me. This recording is one of my greatest achievement in life but it is only the beginning :).When I hear it on my home theater all the devils and evil spirits of fourth year just die out. BUT...
Picture abhi baaki hain ! :P (Next semester abhi baaki hain !! :P )

PS:- I forgot to say thank you to one important person in my previous post - My Blog...hehe :P..so true is the title of the blog - Life ...MY way.. - It's just life but MY way... :)

Light

Have you ever felt that heaviness when you have to hide something from others and take it all on your own to fight the crisis of your life? Have you ever prevented people around you to know what actually is going on in life so that they don't get involved in it? Well that feeling kills from inside. It has been killing me recently but not any more. Finally I was able to cut that out when I let my heart open to a few people. I guess the people with whom I shared already knew something was wrong with me ,but the people nearby me were unaware of anything going wrong with me. In general I don't like sharing my problems with anyone because I hate being a source of tension in someone's life but I couldn't control and so I had to pour it all out. I am so much thankful to them that they helped me out of the situation, it feels good to know that few people are still there on whom I can count on and share my problems. After all this I feel very light and happy, and entered a don't care state in which I can ignore everything.
I am thankful to Sam (mummy), Bhaskar , Sid(Love guru) , Apoorv , A**i for listening to me and my shouting :), I guess distance never is a problem in maintaining a friendship if at all there is a friendship. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel now.It's time to move on to things which are really important than the less relevant idiotic things involving idiotic "THINGS" (:) devil inside!).Yay! Now I will enjoy this phase because I don't know how long will it exist. The wheel is turning now. :)

PS:- Yay!
PPS:- Repeating same mistakes has become a habit :P

'Has' always bacche!!!(Best testimonial Ever )

As i said earlier,d mre i cme to knw abt him d mre i ll write abt him.
One thing i want others to knw is that till u actually be frns wid him u cn never really meet the real SOHAM!nd till then he'l jst be another gr8 singer with "gr8" sense of humor.Bt meet the real him nd then u'll come to knw that ur opinions wr either wrng or u jst knew 1% of him
he is someone who is nt an escapist like most of the ppl in the game of life!he actually faces the situation, no matter wht it takes away frm him! sum ppl who actually feel that he's an enemy to them shud rethink and meet him again,then u'l realize that he's nt an enemy bt a well wisher who is jst too practical
he is sumone hwo cn never do wrng to nyone no matter hw bad u behave wid him.once he calls u a frnd he'll be there fr u the vry moment u need him even if u abused him a day back!a punchin bag in every sense of the word
its jst nt everyday that u meet ppl like him.he really is a gem of a person.Down to earth so simple(yet so complicated).


PS: - thank you so much mummy(http://www.sam-smilingasalways.blogspot.com/).... I will always 'has' as u said...

11th July 2009

What is so special about it this date to write a post about it? Well nothing is special in this date, it will be just a day in someone's life who will be born, someone will die, someone will get a promotion, someone will get a job, someone will move on to a totally different environment from where he/she is, someone will meet a accident and what not. This day can be the doom's day too.. :) ..But yes I am no astrologer to tell you that.
PS:- If we write the date in British standard form of writing date,for example 20th June 2008 will be 20/6/08, someone of you may understand what is the date all about.

HappYness....exists or exits ?

Life has been a great turning wheel for me, turning day and night , days and weeks bringing in new phases of life with it. Sometimes life becomes all gloomy and dark when nothing seems important , you lose your way and find yourself at crossroads unable to decide where to go , whereas , sometimes it becomes all happy and starry when everything , every event , every moment seems so dreamy that you forget about the rest of the world and start living in that dreamland. This is not uncommon, everyone faces it and knows it very well. The best thing about the "happy" phase is you become positive towards things and your viewpoint changes from pessimistic to optimistic. But as expected it has side effects too because when the wheel turns to the other side it becomes difficult to cope with the changes. Everything then seems so depressing that the thing which used to bring a smile on your face actually brings tear to your eyes. The optimistic attitude fails and you automatically turn in to a pessimistic. You become a totally different person than the person before. You then learn a lesson in life about what to do and what not to do in life, how to act safe so that this doesn't happens again in your life. Every normal human being would take a lesson from it and act safe but not me. I am the big fool who forgets about all the lessons learned when the happy phase comes back in life.I start assuming that this happy phase will never end and that I will never repeat the mistakes again. And you know what I repeat the same old mistakes again and again to force my wheel to turn my life back to that gloomy phase where again I have to start thinking over again about where I stand, what am I doing, where am I going?,all these questions and queries don't help in any way and pushes me further into the deep corners of the phase.
I remember watching the movie " pursuit of happyness" ,that movie totally moved me and my thoughts , it told me that we always pursue for happiness in life and that's what keeps us moving, we actually can never be happy but can only pursue for it and dream about happiness.I hope I realize it soon that happiness doesn't exists for me but always exits from my life.
PS:- BEWARE!!! Don't believe in what I am saying , I am a very very bad person. Reason:- previous post.

**T

No no no don't worry I am not writing anything abusive or adult content material in this post. In fact it is a very important issue or rather a warning message to all my fellows who are studying in same "engineering institute" as mine - now my fellows would have surely understood what the post is about. Well we all use asterisks to cover up something which can be a abuse to someone or a group of people.Some of the commonly used abuses are - f**k , M**** C***, etc. But the one in the title is a new addition to all these. I will explain it with a help of simple story.
Recently I and one of very old friends met( I met him after 12 years, let me call him V). I and he decided to meet other childhood friends who lived here in mumbai ( say N and S). So I decided on a plan and met N on route to my home. Then V , I and N suddenly decided to give S a surprise by visiting her college.I was a bit reluctant at first but seeing the enthusiasm in V's eyes I agreed. So we went to her college ( I somehow remembered what sector and all it was - my memory :) ) and sat in canteen. We were waiting and waiting and then she finally arrived and was shocked to see the three of us siting in the college canteen. Then we were chit chatting about our normal day to day things unless the unexpected happened , something which was feared the most , suddenly the doom arrived , the birds flew away , the glasses shattered ,mountains roared, earth cracked , dogs barked -- V uttered the three letter word **T -- ohhhhhh! my God. As soon as he uttered those words we stopped him at that very instant from saying anything further and told him not to ever use that three letter word for it is forbidden to use it outside the realms of my "engineering institute". Those evil three words -- If you use them you will be looked down upon as an insect , a parasite , a bug and what not, whose only job is not to destroy people's life. As he was new here , he was pardoned and given a last warning of not to utter again.
This anecdote clearly depicts the ferocity of those evil three letters. So fellows beware and be alert not to utter as those three letters have destroyed many life, killed many , and has the potential for more damage that anyone can ever imagine.

PS:- If you don't understand the head and tail of this post , don't worry , I don't expect you to understand. But I know few of you have understood :) . On a different note - V's trip to mumbai counted really well , I wish he gets selected for GD and PI sessions too so that he can come back and we can enjoy like we did that day. :) Keep smiling V :).

Trust is must

There is a very famous saying said by whom I don't know - "Change is the only constant in the universe". Well this is just a saying, how much of it is true I don't know. For me, it is a mixed response. I think some things do constantly change with time but few basic things or characteristics remain the same. Well I am not writing this to judge whether change is constant or not but to ponder over what changes me most. What makes my mood swing from gloomy to happy, what makes a permanent impact on my character or viewpoint about something, what makes me change my decision to follow something or not. I guess my past life has most of the influence in all these. Whatever I have experienced right from childhood has effected me and I have changed myself accordingly to be happy and peaceful. Some of these changes have been harsh especially when you have to kill the child in you and face the real mean world where people think only about themselves and no one is no one's friend.Earlier trusting a person was lot easier than it is now. It is now next to impossible to completely believe what a person is saying is correct especially when there has been several occasions when you have been merely fooled by trusting and believing the person in front of you. So the solution to this problem which I figured out is to be ready and be prepared to get fooled or deceived by anyone anywhere so that it hurts less when you actually face it. Though this is not the only solution , this is a very optimistic and peaceful solution to the problem. Other solution would be not to ever trust anyone and be alone in your world or yet another solution can be revenge - give them back what they gave you. But I will stick with the first solution only because someone told me there is no point hating anyone which I realized is true. I place trust way over love , in fact love is just non existent without trust. If you don't trust your lover how can you imagine loving. Well all of the above is just crap , don't pay much attention, go on with your life and be happy because life is short. Too much to do in very less time.

I L L U S I O N ??

DO we tend to create a world around us ? Do we suffer from some illusions ? I have been wondering over such illusions for a while. The example I take here is very odd but still it explains my situation. Well to tell the truth I haven't attended any classes for three and the half weeks ( today I had to attend because of some important work ), I don't know why but I didn't want to go, didn't want to see those same old faces , so called friends , hypocrites etc. But well this is what is life, I have to "adjust" and "adapt" to the situation whatever be the case.I am waiting eagerly for the day I am out of this engineering institute, I will be the happiest person on earth that day, feels choked around here. I go home regularly and keep my parents in a illusion that my life is going fine and I am happy so that they don't get involved in all this mess. At home I find a totally different environment - an environment where people support each other, help each other, share things unlike my college where people try to pull each other down every moment in every sphere of life.
I was totally in control of my life unless few things happened which gave me immense hope that whatever be my situation in here , I have friends and people to whom I can TALK. As I said earlier I had no hope from Jamshedpur but later turned out to be one of the best time ever in my life when people where not stabbing each other on back but actually sharing, helping, supporting each other. The Euphoria created by Jamshedpur lasted for a while after the internship also but vanished finally as usual. One must have heard the saying- All's well that ends well, but in my case it is All that's well ends.
But still hope is not lost ,it is never lost (as someone induced in me),I will keep trying liking my life as long as I can. I am also eagerly waiting for the doom's day to come as I want to see the end of this world, the end of everything that we take for granted, who knows that day reality comes the closest to us for which the whole mankind is searching for.

Naa koi ...

I don't know why but I am totally in love with this song...This song was recorded on 20th August 2008..It was written by me..music is by me and my friend Alok..The lyrics are nothing special but means a lot to me..may be one day I will laugh over what I have written but this song gets me a adrenaline rush..others may find it very ordinary song and it may be..but not for me especially after having figured out a video for it if we ever make it..The song is available here - http://www.esnips.com/web/soham or at my friend Alok's blog - http://iitbalok.blogspot.com .The recording is a mobile recording so it is not perfect..rhythm and vocals by me , lead and bass by Alok.
The lyrics for the song go like this :-

Naa koi hain naa koi tha
tere siva jaane jaa...(2)

Jaan bhi de du
Dil hain kya
Tu hain mera jahaan

Tu jo haa kar de
main kho jayu
tu jo naa kar de
main mar jayu

Zindagi me tum mile to
mil gayi khushiyan
Tu hi saansein tu hi baatein
tu hi meri duniya

Aa bhi jaa tu
kyun hain khafa
tu hain mera jaahan

Height of Idealism and foolishness

The one who is intelligent , smart , takes care of my family ..who is a prankster...who is jolly and sporty ...doesn't keeps anything inside her heart ...wants to share the most simple and weirdest thing with me..fights with me to make my annoying habits go ...smiles whenever I sing a song to make her happy ..who mixes with my family very easily..the one who helps me forget my past..whose one touch on my forehead gives way to all my headaches and worries..and the one who understands the beauty of music like I do.. and the one who exists only in my mind and not in reality...

Phobia of....

Fear as we know governs much part of our life, one can say that he/she doesn't fear anything but he/she might fear the most weirdest thing on earth of which one can only imagine. I will not say I don't fear anything, there are a few things which I would certainly like to keep distance from. Well talking of fear, the first thing that comes in my mind is my song- saara jahan. The starting of the song ( as mentioned by someone who listened the song for the very first time) sends shivers along the spine and simulates a feeling at par with fear. One day I was listening to this song on my home theater when the weather was very gloomy and dark(cloudy along with lighting) and the whole song's feel resonated with the ambiance, that's when I realized that we have made a really good song.Well leaving further discussion on the song I return back to the topic of fear. Fear may develop out of ignorance, experience or hormonal misbehavior. For me fear generally develops out of experience, hopefully I have no hormonal disturbance and I don't fear due to ignorance ,I get excited instead. Here are some of the phobias I have

Phobia of needles - Belonephobia
Phobia of crowd - Ochlophobia
Phobia of child birth - Tocophobia
Phobia of beautiful women - Venustraphobia
Phobia of women - Gynophobia
Phobia of marriage - Gametophobia
Phobia of loneliness - Autophobia

Few Drops of Bliss

As we all know, festival season is here, most of us are in a mood to enjoy and let their worries go away but don't know why I am not able to do that. The main thing I like about festival is the interaction between the people i.e finding new friends, meeting old relatives etc. My "masi"and "mausa" have come to our place, my cousin sister has also come who studies in 8th standard. Well as for us Durga Puja is the main festival of all, we don't remain in our home for most part of the day, don't make food for lunch or dinner etc. But my college -Engineering institute doesn't provides me that freedom to go home and follow all these traditions but somehow I managed to bunk the lectures and come home. So we all( 7 people in all) went to see programs during this durga puja at various places like vashi, juhu, chembur etc. I was able to go only to vashi. I went there for two major reasons - KK and sonu nigam. I woke up monday morning at 6:00, told mom to prepare breakfast as I was going back to my "engineering institute". At 6:30 I went to kitchen and told mom I am not going, I am bunking the lectures, I gave the reason that my "masi and mausa" are coming so, but my mom became suspicious( mothers know everything :P)and told me you could have told me earlier but it's fine. Well yes my mom's suspicion was not invalid as my mom told me earlier that KK is performing live in vashi's durga puja pandal, and also my mom knows how big a fan I am of KK and his songs. Don't know what happened but I took this decision by listening to my heart and my instincts(I have started using them more recently).I couldn't resist but stay at home. I didn't sleep then, I took my guitar and started singing a few songs of KK which I love the most- Alvida, Tu hi meri shab, Ajab si, Ashayein, Tu hain aasmaan, 'Khuda Jaane', etc. Continued till 11, untill I realised that I haven't slept much last night( 3 hrs), so I went back to sleep and woke up at 1:30(:P). Well leaving all unimportant details, finally I went to watch KK live at vashi fighting with rain and mud. The show started, KK came on stage, huge roar, deja vu of mood indigo 2006, the show ended. And I was amazed. I was in a different world. During the concert I was the only one in my neighborhood shouting and singing(I was singing harmonies to what KK was singing so I got more stares), but who cares, at that time I wished that if it is possible that I go up the stage and sing with him ,but obviously who would listen to me, singing(:P). Those were my few drops of bliss in a sea of despairity,a spark of light in the sky of darkness and gloominess, a soothing fragnance in an odorless and dead life. I started dreaming of singing alongside KK, I know how strange is this, but dreaming is not a crime, we all have our dreams and percieve our dreamland.By the way,the most strange and weird thing is that we find other's dreams to be too unrealistic and impossible(Like you might be feeling about my dreams right now).But it doesn't matters to me.
Well returning back to the main point i.e Durga puja in vashi. After I watched KK live, I came to know that sonu nigam is performing day after tommorow. Sonu nigam, just the name is enough to introduce him, the most versatile singer ever I have seen, he can sing anything, from hardcore classical to hip shaking dance numbers. Like KK, his attitude towards music is what I like the most. So Wednesday evening I left from my engineering institute for my home and after strugling and fighting a long way, I managed to reach home( In between I found out that I have lost 3kgs in just few weeks, fastest rate of dip in my weight in 3 years, don't know why it happened, may be something or the other). Again leaving all details, I went to see sonu nigam live, he came on stage, huge roar, deja vu of last durga puja, show ended. Again I was left amazed. What a talent, what a voice, what a versatility, he showed to us how he is different and how he can move the crowd. Like earlier I was the only one in my neghborhood shouting and singing( this time not harmonies but the actual tune).This was again that drop, that light, that fragnance which keeps me alive inspite of all the worries and despairities of my life.

Compromises, Sacrifices and Anger !!!

Now I realize how important it is to have a mum friend like my blog, who would only listen to me and not point out mistakes and give counter arguments and statements instead. I have heard people say change is the only constant in life. Things change , people change, character changes, and what not changes. Some changes are good and are readily acceptable when they give out better results than the previous case but what about those which have created just non sense and have killed the spirit of the thing. Until now I felt that compromising a few things, making a few sacrifices for the sake and well being of a common event is tolerable but when people take you granted for making a sacrifice or make a compromise, things get out of control for me and I cannot handle them. Then I feel it's better to get out of thing completely rather than doing that thing by compromising and sacrificing. Writing is a very nice way to channelize your anger and really, it helps. It lightens up your mind and heart. You feel very comfortable. Well these type of situations give me infinite courage and guts, I can dare to do anything or say anything to anyone, fear doesn't exists then. That is the time when something exception comes up from within, when my real self begins to discover the reality behind everything and everyone. It deepens the search for my real self, the search for SOHAM (swa + aham ,meaning-> I am the one who is equal to the greatest truth in the world)

Era of Arguments

For the last few months, life has been full of mind bogling situations, controversies, prejudices, heated arguments. Some arguments led to a peaceful end with new bondings and stronger relationships, but some has dented few relationships in such a way whose scars have made a permanent mark. Few arguments were about what is right and what is wrong, few were about accusations placed on me and many more. Though I am not a very big fan of arguments, but I was squeezed in between them for one reason or the other. I believe I should not waste my time on arguments as all these are just fruitless, they just help in increasing blood pressure and hatred among people. I am a type of person who doesn't wants to hurt a person's feeling unneccesarily and I find happiness in happiness of people close to me or people around me even if I don't know them at all. In fact I love bringing a smile on a stranger's face whenever I get a chance. Well some people take it in a wrong way and accuse me of showing off but I don't mind it because I know myself and my intentions towards what I am doing and I don't need anyone's help in judging that. I always care about others and their feelings because I think it is in my genes, I can't help it. I have the ability to absorb anything people say about me and I don't feel angry about it but it takes a bit of patience when someone says something about someone else who may be close to me or may be a stranger as well, I can't tolerate it. I don't impose my likings on someone else neither do I say anything negative about someone's likings and dislikings. Liking and disliking are generated by instincts, if you like something you are bound to get attached with it and if you dislike you will never go close to that thing. In my case things are complicated, I may dislike a thing at the first encounter but eventually may start liking it due to some characteristic of that thing or other. This happens a lot with me. I compromise with my likings and dislikings a lot for happiness of others which in turn gives happiness to me. I always extract the positive out of things and discard the negative things from them, this is how I have led my life from childhood. I feel it is obviuos that I can't get everything of my choice everytime so whatever positive I am getting I must appreciate it and keep it in one corner of my mind. My actions and deeds always have an aim, that may be to make myself happy or make others happy or may be also to send a message to someone or make someone realize peacefully. Well on an ending note, arguments are a part of life, we have to live with it.

Making memories

I believe life is short, we all have our good times and bad times, sometimes we can cope with the bad ones and sometimes not. Life has its own constraints and bounds which effect our decisions and priorities, someone might disagree with this statement but I don't and I will not. Sometimes life seems so flawless and so full of levity that we don't complain anything about it, on the contrary sometimes it backfires letting us know we cannot get everything. But among these extreme situations of happiness and sadness, I find a thing common( at least in my case), I stop caring about the world around, what they think, what they are doing,will do and so on. When I am very happy about my life, it feels like - now who can stop me, I am in full control and I am loving it and when I am sad it feels- world! go to hell, I can handle myself, don't pity on me. Well whatever I have written above is all waste, now I will return to the main point i.e. Making a memory.
From all the experience and encounters of the various situations I have been through in my life, I learned that I always spoil the present thinking of the past and future, which in turn becomes a past. I tried to get rid of it but nothing helps. I cannot suddenly forgive someone who has betrayed me and forget him/her. So I found out a solution to it so that I can be happy for the maximum amount of time of my life. The solution is not so easy to implement because you need to kill most of your emotions for it. First thing is - One shouldn't expect anything from anyone. Secondly, remember that life is just once chance, don't spoil it by hating people and planning retaliation against them. Third and the most important point- Take each moment of your life as a MEMORY, you can make a good memory for yourself by following the above two points and it's in your hands, how you want to remember this moment, so that when you look backward, you shouldn't feel sad about it, instead you must be able to say- "Wow, what a great time I had". I am already following this policy and this helps me a lot. Even if a memory is a bitter one, I don't want to remove it from my life because I don't want an incomplete view of my life when I look back. If someone tells me to remove all the bad memories from my brain, I will not let them do it. Those bad memories taught me a lot in life. Most of my emotions are now dead, I have not cried for a very long time, i just feel sad and nothing else, I have learned how to act happy so that other people don't lose the smile on their face, I have learned to act as if I don't know anything about what someone did, I have learned to absorb anything which comes my way,I have learned to keep other people out of my problems in life, though sometimes the changes hurts but this is what life is all about, collecting memories, which in my opinion is my biggest asset of all. The memories of sacrifices , foolishness , liking , hating , talking , laughing, crying , singing , dancing , and many more. I am surrounded by people who don't believe in this thing but I don't mind it.
Now to chill your mind after reading all this weird and arbitrary things, I will tell you a story of one chudel and two crows, and the title of the story is love story 2050 :).
Two crows, one named God and other named fragnance were living happily when suddenly one night a chudel named kajol arrived, she approached the two crows and obviously she was hungry, her tongue waiting for some tasty dinner which was reflected in her eyes. So the crows had no choice but to make that chudel happy.So they talked to each other and told the chudel that they will be ready for dinner in few minutes. They decided that they will not make the chudel unhappy in any way so started preparation. So after 5 minutes or so, they came out, the chudel with all her hungry eyes watched them come, the chudel couldn't control the hunger and in that hurry she approached too fast and the MAGGI 2 minute noodles toppled from the hands of fragnance but God somehow managed to hold it before it falls and gives it to the chudel who eats it with all pleasure. Finally the chudel says thank you for the dinner and leaves. Moral of the story:- God saved the day !!
PS:- Sorry for the story :P
PPS:- I found out that the main lead in the movie Phoonk was played by a crow.!!!