The last night of the year...

Well the night is not yet over.. but in my words it was the perfect night.. Firstly I realized how much some people mean to me... today was supposed to be a boring day because I had no plans for tonight and decided that I will sit at home only and watch some Tv shows etc. Well today started off by my old childhood friend Sriram visiting my place, which was a great start as we enjoyed our time talking. We met nikeeta and shiny at different times as their free times didn't matched.. Sriram, shiny and I roamed around in the mall for a while and then when sriram was supposed to leave for station, we decided that all three of us will go to station in my scooter, I was driving it, sriram at my back and then shiny, it reminded me of the scene in the movie Swades. Also I went back to my memories of jodhpur for a while. After sriram left, I , nikita and shiny were supposed to meet at around 5:30 pm for the new year eve. I came back home at around 4 pm. Then after some time some family friend kid came to me to ask me doubts in maths, so he started off and I was going on comfortably when suddenly I saw my watch and realised it is 6:45 pm, I completely forgot about the meeting. I then rushed through his doubts and finished within 5-10 mins. I called up nikeeta - phone was unavailable, so I called up shiny - she was not so much pissed off but was angry and shocked that how I forgot. I said thousand sorries and then decided to make it up. I knew shiny will not come down again so I decided I will go to nikita's colg and say sorry. So I called her up and said I am coming, she told me she was going with her friends to marine drive so make it early, so I rushed my scooter at 70kmph (like in jodhpur :P)and reached.. there she was with her friends.. then as a punishment I had to take her to station on my scooter.. so I took her.. rectified her headphones which were not working..and then she left for her trip.. after that I again called up shiny and told her sorry.. Then the sweetest part began.. I reached home with burgers from McD for me and my sis.. After enjoying the burgers I switched on the home theatre in radio mode and in a very loud volume.. I loved the sound.. My sis said she would dance tonight at 12 on this sound.. After that the whole family including my grandfather and grandmother sat in the drawing room and started chatting.. and this was the best part of the night.. My grandfather told me stories about his college day life and I came to know how jolly he has been all through his life... I still remember hearing stories and jokes from him when I used to visit my village during my holidays.. He told me an incident where one person asked him - " Dont u have any worries in life? why are u so happy always ?" ..He replied that time - " Of course I have tons of worries but that doesnt means I cannot be happy and laughing all the time" .. I was moved by it that how simple those lines may be but how strong it was.. This one incident told me everything about him.. next best thing that happened was chatting with my sis.. I just suddenly started giving her fundaes of life..which moved on to me asking riddles and puzzles to her which I made on the spot.. I was enjoying it very much, I was not complaining about her weaknesses neither she was angry or shouting at me.. then the topic moved on to astrology.. and predicting future.. my grandfather saw the lines in the hand and said ur fate line is very nice, ur wealth line is also very good, but ur heart line is the best.. it reaches right up to the point between the fingers on both hands so that when i join both my hands it makes a half moon.. I noticed no one except my sis had the heart line so deep.. my mom's was just short of the half moon.. my dad's was not even close to half moon.. my sis suddenly came and hugged me saying wow we are so similar by heart... I felt so relaxed and happy after discussing all these which also included my childhood.. jodhpur .. tunmun's childhood.. I was overwhelmed.. I thought to myself what can be a better celebration that this.. My grandfather saw the glow of satisfaction in my eyes.. Even my sis saw it.. I felt it

Selfish

From childhood I know only one definition of selfish i.e. thinking only about one-self and not caring about what happens to others. Well I never liked this idea of being selfish and doing things only to make me happy. Along the years I realized I obtain happiness by bringing about happiness to others. When something which I have done makes others happy, I become happy automatically. Even if I have to make a sacrifice in making that happen, I like to do it. One friend of mine told me that I am lying that I get happiness by seeing happiness. Well he is partly right and partly wrong. I am happy if I see deserving people happy but angry when it is the opposite. I find it difficult to say no when people ask for help from me. I think helping too much can in turn hurt me :P when the people whom I would help would just vanish after that or come to surface only when they need help. Well to prevent that I have developed the theory of expectations where you expect nothing in return from anyone anytime anywhere. I tried changing myself but couldn't as it suffocated me and made me unhappy.

PS:- Getting bored.. waiting for an adventure to happen... like asteroid hitting earth or ice caps melting faster :P

Phew !

Finally, the end of war, uff never had a fight like this in my life. I don't care what others think of me because I know what and who I am, whether I am influenced by others or not etc.

Well, leaving all that shit, I and alok went to Malad today, went to Inorbit Mall, Mindspace, walked and roamed about a lot, and finally ate at Papa john's. We tried it for the first time, it was better than Dominoes but not as good as Pizza hut, though few items were very innovative indeed and also it was very price effective. Alok said he wants to roam around mumbai for the next few days and so I will accompany him.

Also, Mood Indigo is in the air, the best time of the year :), not because of the girls but due to the environment and ambiance, so lively and dynamic. Sonu nigam is coming this year, along with Rabbi shergill, Indian Ocean. Apart from this there are many other small concerts, circuses etc.

And tomorrow I am taking Alok to kharghar :) though he has been there before. Also I need to get my certis.

Respect

One cannot develop respect for someone right away, it is a gradual process and takes time for me. I used to respect someone but recently all the respect is gone and now when I look back at my scribblings on the blog I feel awesome because through out this time I learned few great lessons and gained a very nice experience out of it, that is all I can say. My friends always told me never be serious about any bonds and I didn't listen to them, few told me girls are evil but I didn't believe, some told me to act like someone but I didn't because I couldn't. Now I realized what all they were saying. I have to learn now so that I can survive. The problem is there is my upbringing, I was told from childhood that everyone is good, everything is good, there is always hope whatever be the case. Those words still ring in my ears but I guess it is time to let them go. The world has become a stage where people enter only to act their lives out and live happily but those few unfortunate who cannot act are left with nothing but sadness. But times are changing now, right now I am the most relaxed person on earth and enjoying life at it's best. Yesterday I went to see my office in powai and the office complex is awesome, near the hills and great view of hiranandani towers. Again the expectations from the job are at zero, if I don't like it,it will not hurt as bad It has become very easy to forget some people as I realized they never actually understood me. But I don't blame those people as understanding me can be a great deal.

PS:- Upbringing plays a very important role, if you remain confined in your rooms and homes expecting someday suddenly you will come out and have everything then your mindset is bound to be confined, but when you actually face the world everyday you see how people are actually and how you have to manage yourself to survive, well someday someone will realize, that day is not far away, about 6-7 months away.

Fed Up

Totally fed up with arguments and all, today morning I received the same message from two of my friends - Vikesh and Nikeeta which said - Never explain yourself to anyone, person who likes you, doesn't need it and the person who dislikes you won't believe it. I really liked the theme of the message and thought that why the hell am I explaining myself to some "selfish rabbit" freak, if some freak goes on barking something or other and I respond then there is no difference left between that freak and me. So it is better to let them bark and shout because those who bark don't bite.

PS:- hehe alok dekh yahan wapas prove ho gaya ki IGNORANCE IS NOT BLISS ... :P

The Good, Bad and the Worse....

Everywhere we observe people who are good in politics prosper like anything moving above the hierarchy of power and prosperity. I think it's time that I should also learn some tricks as there is no place for all that goodness and simplicity in this cruel world. Going through different phases and experiences I learned that when you help others, care for others, the returns are only bad and nothing else. You then feel as if you have been fooled by them and they have used you. So it is better to have an image of a cruel, bad, insensitive person so that you know that nobody will even try to come close to you and fool you. It has become the ages of the bad where good only suffocates to death. But the problem lies at the root level - how can one change oneself from being good to bad? What if it is not their in the genes or blood? What if one's instincts tell you not to do so? It is obviously tough but to prevent further mistakes one needs to do it or atleast try to reach a certain level so that the person cannot be fooled again. I hope I learn fast.

God save Them, Help Them

I thought some people had brains, but unfortunately it was just an illusion. If someone passes on a sarcasm, the other person, if he/she has brains, would understand it. But but but.. there are few people who are so unaware that they make fun of themselves and don't even realize that.. and you realize you are fighting with a five year old kid. So I would like to pray to GOD to please save them from this ignorance who think they are the only ones who know a few words and their meaning and all. Pity on them, bechare, I feel why should one even fight with such ignorant people for it will only be unfair to them. Atleast the category must be the same - A GROWN up cannot fight with a child, its unfair naa!!
I get a bit of angry when someone abuses MUSIC but it's fine when someone who doesn't knows the difference between the genres of music is commenting about it. I forgive them for their IGNORANCE. May GOD show them the right way and give them the right knowledge.Amen!

PS:- Earlier I was laughing but now I feel sorry for the "selfish rabbit", Ohh so sad re, I pity. GET WELL SOON!!!
PPS:- Bechare zameen par !!! hehe ... Nice spoof.. by the way..
PPPS:- I love PS's. :P
PPPPS:- Hey alok you remember the "wannabe" post on X-chromosomes, I think I can add few aspects to it. Tell this to shut-up-di .. :P

Chikna ghada

There is a saying in some language (may be madwadi) that a chikna ghadha(container) refers to a type of person who is stubborn and doesn't listens to anyone whatsoever.

PS:- hehe rotfl .. hehe.. Still laughing out loud on the earlier post's misinterpretation. "Selfish rabbit" has gone into the heights of misinterpretation, why am I watching sitcoms I should blog more to get more of this kind of laugh. Hehehe.. My god!. Ooops the PS is longer than the actual post :P. Mummy when are you coming back from delhi, I wanna show and tell you something, you will LAUGH OUT LOUD too.

PPS:- Laughter is surely the best medicine, and anger reduces life time :P, I feel much more energetic now wow!

PPPS:- Wana be madhumakkhi? beees ... :P, hehe ok ok, now I will stop laughing for a while (shit it's tough not to :D)

The Corrs

It was a mistake but ended up in such a beautiful experience. The mistake was that I downloaded a different -"breathless" expecting it to be the one by shankar mahadevan. Well thank God, I downloaded the wrong one because that brought me in the world of the Corrs. Ya it is a band of Irish origin with the whole family playing and singing in it. For details visit wikipedia. The song breathless just took my breathe away - two reasons - the song itself and the singer , just wow! Andrea corr is the lead singer and tin whistle player, Sharon and Caroline are her sisters who play violin and drums respectively, the brother of all three plays the guitar. So where was I, ya the song. It was just amazing. I fell in love with Andrea at the first song at itself. I listened to the song atleast few hundred times which freaked my sister away :P.
When I told others about her, I came to know that everyone already knew about her. For example shatabdi was fighting over the fact that who was hotter - andrea or sharon. I said andrea and she supported the other two which ended in no result :P. Well she is gonna lose, no doubt. I found out from wikipedia that sharon and caroline got married and left their career, one got married on 9th july (My mom's birthday) and other on 22nd August (My birthday) :P, interesting!

PS:- Their debut album is named Forgiven, not Forgotten :P hehe .. man !!! what is happening all around, too much weird world :P ..hehe

PPS:- They are good, do listen to them.

Bachna Ae Haseeno (Beware !!! O Beautiful girls)

Well whatever people may say - I was rolling on the floor laughing at many times during the movie. Basically I was surprised to see the similarity between the movie and real life(at least my life). Well the movie starts off with a young 18 year old Raj (uff cant they find any new name !!! come on man !!! raj malhotra, raj aryan malhotra, raj oberoi and what not!!), but yes the name plays a veryyyy important role in the movie. Well as per the rules of yash raj movies, Switzerland must be shown, so it starts off with Raj with 3 friends going to Euro trip after their school (Ohh my god !! they surely had money, although they said cheap tickets but come on! well this is forgiven for now as many more are to come), they fortunately(movie luck) meet a gang of four girls (hmmm gang of FOUR girls, sort of deja vu (not only movies but also my real life)), well the ratio is 1:1, such a beautiful coincidence. Well the heroine(Mahi(Hmmm mahi..again very very very close ...deja vu)), who is so jolly and happy-go-lucky, always smiling and thinks she is great(hmmm again and again deja vu... ) is essentially searching for Raj of her life. So the Raj here plays the mandolin to impress her and she gets impressed indeed. Finally some way they get to meet and talk and finally the girl tells him that she is getting married so please come and save me. Now 18 years boy !!! will save the girl,hmmm..hmmm.. not too much deja vu..but sort of.. Now the jhatka comes in, the boy turns out to be a loser and reveals to his friends that he was doing all this for time pass(Not a deja vu as there must be friends in real life to tell anything). Well not actually time pass, in the movie he argues that he was only 18 years old and that he couldn't tell the truth in front of his friends because it would appear foolish. Well the girl is devasted but the boy remains fine ... NOT AT ALL DEJA VU.. Well moving on, 6 years later, the boy has got a job in MICROSOFT(what the hell.. was he an iitian..? or was he a super genius) in mumbai of course, and lives with a girl named Radhika (hmmm.. right now I am waiting..what would she be in my life called - radha, radhiska(?), radho(hehe), radio (Ohh my god !!)),anyways from this point onwards I can't relate it to my life as I am still not there so I will simply write (the exciting part was gone with the "mahi" part :(.. indeed interesting and sometimes shocking too..baap re).. Well with radhika he thinks she is cool but turns out she also wants marriage and all and so he ditched her on the wedding day and flies to sydney (The happening place), so after 5 more years (when he is 29), he is shown working on video game portals and designing. Well in short, there he meets this cab driver - Gayatri (hmmm in my life she would be called - Gayati(?), Gay (Ohh my god no...)), anyways this time he reaaally falls in love with her but gets dumped by her and now realized what he has done in the past (a bit of deja vu.. only a bit). So now he decides to go back and say sorry (after 12 years !!!). Exciting part starts again (Mahi....yay!!!), he goes first to amritsar to meet mahi(who is married by the way now), and meets her "twin" children(Ohh my god!!! twins .. too much deja vu..shocking), anyways her husband beats him up and sets him free but he comes back by DDLJ method and meets a totally different... mahi..one who has lost hope..one who is always angry.. thinks that love doesn't exists..etc etc, so Raj basically makes her realize that what she is doing is only RUINING her life and nothing else, she is not able to grasp the happiness around her etc etc (hehe.. deja vu again.. this part was missing until today), well mahi realizes it and finally jogi and mahi live happily ever after (I wish deja vu...). Now Raj moves to radhika, who by the way has become hot shot model and which was her earlier dream, man her attitude , baap re.. , naak me ghussa (again deja vu...) well she has also become all angry type and stubborn etc, she gives him punishment by making him work like anything in all spheres, be it waiter, personal assistant etc. Finally she says a lot of things to him (deja vu.. obvi..), and tells him to go away, but later she realizes that in this state of anger she has forgotten who she really is, always frustrated with everything etc, she then tells him that she forgives him and then suddenly she finds herself back again..and felt nice about it (I wish deja vu .. :( but not until now..), so now the boring max part begins, Raj gets back to australia to fin out that Gayatri is also in love with him and finally they get married and all.

Hmmmmmm lots of deja vu and shockers in this, but to be true I really liked watching the movie, it was fun listening to so familiar real life dialogues and mind you "THERE IS NO SARCASM INVOLVED IN THIS AND ALSO THERE IS NO PUN INTENDED" in this post.

PS:- All English grammar lovers.... sorry :P

Laught Out loud !! Hilarious

Recent attacks on Mumbai was really a shock, it was sudden and unexpected. Terrorists in rush hour taking out their guns and open firing at the people, hijacked hotels, killed the hostages and what not. Without any doubt, the fingers were pointed to our neighbors and the neighbors were very much offended as if they knew nothing about it and are totally unaware and innocent. Well then few days back a video was released on net showing a media channel saying arbitrary things about our country and our army, they inferred their own conclusion out of it and said in a provoking language. Well the most hilarious part of it was there interpretation of FACTS shown to them. If you haven't seen the video then please watch it, it is worth a watch. It shows how MISinterpretation of "FACTS" can lead to such hilarious encounters in the history of media. Indian people after watching the video were obviously angry but at the same time were LAUGHING OUT LOUD at the ignorance of them. Well I guess the brains of the people of that region are used to such MISinterpretations. Well this was at a national level, some also occur at individual level.
Later the captured terrorist and his family was totally unveiled in the international media and the truth was out. Well the truth has to come out some way or the other and this is how it works everywhere be it national level or individual level. But you know, the "selfish rabbit" would not let go of the carrot at any cost.

Once

I don't remember when, but some day in the last 3 months, one of my friends- shashank, suggested me a movie named- 'Once'. He said the songs are great and as a music enthusiast you must watch it. So I downloaded the movie(within 5 minutes :P) and started watching it (although it was 2:00am ). The movie started off with a nice soothing song with the main lead hero strumming his broken guitar and singing for money(I thought of this profession when I was not getting any job, I thought of being a beggar at CST station and one day get killed by a terrorist, my friend alok wanted to join me but I said you should play at a different place, it will increase the returns from the begging :P).Well now I will not need it (unfortunately :(, because I would have loved it, music all day , freedom wow!). So, the movie, second song in the movie was "say it to me now", at the end of this song the female lead appears. Well I was already lost in the movie when this beautiful song came in - "falling slowly", it took my mind away. I was so thrilled in the course of the movie, I wished that time I was in there actually, playing my own songs(dream) like the male lead did in the movie.
Everything was going on perfectly like a perfect movie made for me, the guy always lost in the thought of his love from past life, receiving great comments about the songs he wrote, just amazing. The guy formed a temporary band to record his songs and go for a record deal. The whole journey shown so beautifully. And then finally they were in a studio, recording their first song. I was already on the seventh heaven watching all these, when something took me to the fourteenth heaven, it was the song, the one which I liked the best - "when your mind's made up". There are few songs for which you just close your eyes and listen, for which you stop doing everything else, for which you don't need any excuse and there it was - the song of the moment, the song that hit hard, perfectly at just the perfect place at the perfect time. This song took me to some different place, some different time. I saw this portion of the movie again and again and again, about a thousand times, not even sure of that, may be more. When the movie ended it was 5:30am, the movie is less than 1 and half hours long but it took me 3 and half to complete it as i watched few scenes again and again and again.
After this night, the song is in my every play-list till now. In fact, today I watched the movie again and my body hairs , eyes , ears reacted in the same way as they did that night. I decided to write about the movie as I was watching it again. Amazing movie (at least for me).
The movie didn't ended by- the guy and girl living together happily ever after, but ended in a way that both were happy and missed each other very much. I couldn't sleep that night after watching the movie, how can I? I took my guitar into hands and wondered...

The song --" Dard-E-Tisco "

Well nowadays, after getting a job I am quite jobless :P. So I landed up searching arbitrary things in arbitrary places and bags. This endless search led me to a copy which I got(took :P) during my TATA Steel internship. I found a song named - Dard-e-tisco written there. I remembered the instance when it was written. We all were returning by bus and singing and enjoying when I sang Dard-e-tisco instead of Dard-e-disco, and there is was the origin of this song. Vivek(paty) was very enthu about the concept of this song, so I and paty started off writing this song in a copy. The song goes like this-

Tata employee ki beti haseen
Kar gayi kaisi jadoogari
Neend in aakhon se cheen li hain
dil me bechainiya hai bhari

Main awara main deewana
Ab samjhayu main ye kis kis ko
Dil me mere hain Tata tisco...Tata tisco...Tata tisco...

Dep me chaar thi, chaaro me do huhaa thi
Kispe tiku, yehi mann me confusion tha
pehli wali ultimaaldaar party thi
Doosri wali LG Fl***on thi

Kisko patau main hoonkara, kaise patau main hoonkara
ab dhundhta unhe main yahaan wahan, everywhere inside TISCO
dil me mere hain TATA tisco...

Mahine beetein, koi to naa mili mujhko
loveguru tha, usne bhi dhoka diya mujhko
Khud le gaya maaldar party ko wo
Fl***on ne bhi bhaav nahi diya mujhko

Fundae diye sab bekkar, kaisa zamana hain- sab bekaar
ab phirta hu main yahaan wahaan, like mango sakchi,kadma , bistu
Dil me mere hain Dard-e-tisco..Dard-e-tisco...Dard-e-tisco..


Lyrics:- Vivek pateshwari aka Paty
Paper:- Soham Chakraborty
Support:- Sid and Bhaskar


PS:- Mango , sakchi , kadma , bistupur are places in jamshedpur.

The Hurdle

When I saw my name in the shortlist for interviews, Rahul bajaj was there with me, he was also waiting for the results with me. So after a grilling group case study and individual presentation I finally made it to the interview, the chance I have been waiting for so long. After the result, rahul bajaj started giving me final tips and fundaes to crack the interview advising me what to say and what not to say in the interview(He mainly dealt with the HR type questions leaving the technical stuff for me). So without any delay I moved forward to the metallurgy department where the interviews were going on. When I reached there I saw that my name is second in the list for interview in room number 106. So I started revising the HR questions as I heard from everywhere they ask HR questions mainly. After about 45 minutes, they called up my name. I went in with two copies of my resume. I greeted the interviewer and gave him one copy of my resume. As I gave the copy I realized I had not stapled the two pages of my resume. So as expected the interviewer gave me a disgusting look and asked me- "You haven't even stapled your resume?". Without losing my composure and confidence, I replied - "Sir, it is easier to view the resume in one go when the pages are not stapled, you can get the whole picture of what I have done in one go". Impressed by my answer, he replied -"That's nice, you took care of this little thing". The next question as I expected was - "You are an electrical engineer, why do you want to join consulting?". I was more than ready for the answer and so I replied - "Sir, I don't want to confine myself to be working on the same problem for many years like we do in MS or PhD, I want to pierce through various dimensions and different fields of knowledge like we do in consulting where we deal with practical problems at the root". Then as I was expecting another HR question, I was shocked that the next question was - "Can you write me a code for sorting numbers?". Without showing my level of shock and fear, I asked him- "Which sorting algorithm?". He said any of my choice. Within those micro and milli seconds I recalled everything I studied the day before yesterday with alok, where alok was reading the book and explaining me the sorting algorithms, data algorithms when I was busy playing the guitar!(That day's(1.5 hours hardly) study helped both me and alok, it helped alok get through avaya's interview).So I chose the selection sort and explained him the algorithm and wrote a pseudo code to satisfy him. I even gave the time complexity of the algorithm to impress him. He then asked me a question based on the algorithm to which I first gave the wrong answer but then corrected myself. He then asked me about bubble sort to which I replied I haven't studied it. He again gave that disgusting look and I was preparing myself to cover up, someone entered the room distracting him to some other task. So I bought some time and relaxed. After that I replied by saying I have studied only selection, merge and quick sort(little did he knew that I studied it only two days back :P).After that he asked me a puzzle on chess board and asked my approach to solve that, it was a question which I solved way back in kota when I was in bansal, a simple permutation and combination problem. So I gave him the approach and he was happy. He then asked me - "Where have you applied IT in your life till now?". I was not expecting this but somehow I related IT to the academic projects I did in my curriculum and inspired him. He then directly asked me to explain one of the projects, I opted for the vowel synthesizer and explain him the project in layman terms giving him the facts which would appear fascinating to a common person and act like USP(unique selling point). Then he asked me about my extra curricular activities, so without any delay I started off my music and participation, awards etc, but soon was diverted to tell more about the coordinator thing in techfest(which I never did, I fell sick before that so I was not present during that time), so I went off by saying what I had in mind when I had decided to add this to my resume, explaining him how I led a group of five people to optimize the budget of the gaming zone and expand the horizons (:P). After that he asked me among so much work how do I manage time. I was ready for this answer too (thanks to naman and rahul bajaj)- I replied - "I prioritize my work according to the deadlines ahead, giving maximum priority to the one whose deadline is the earliest and hence make a list accordingly". He was expressionless, didn't know what he was thinking. Well after reviewing my resume again, he said - "I am done with my part, do you have any questions?", frankly I was not prepared for this, so I said - " No sir". Surprised, he asked again in a enquiringly voice - "You don't have any questions? !!!". Then out of the blue and from the deep corner of my brain I fired the RAAMBAN(A weapon which is ultimate which can make things right at any time howsoever bad things are), I replied-" I already know a lot about Deloitte as my mama is already working in it in the Hyderabad office. Deloitte is a multinational company, 140 countries, more than 150,000 employees(I knew the exact figure(165,000) but I said it like this so that it doesn't seem to be artificial) etc." His face melted as I told him the figures which ended my encounter in the best fashion possible. So I went out with a smile on my face.
When I came back to the room, I slept and tried not to think about the result and all as my mind was undergoing too much pressure. I found out many loop holes in the interview and thought will it make such a difference. Fought hard with the emotions creeping up, roam around the room to prevent sprain in my muscles telling myself I am going to get selected in this no matter what. My heart beat was never less than 120, which resulted in a bit of high pressure and dizziness. I took long breathes to cool me down. Each second was going like a millennium. Whole life flashed before my eyes, the things I said to few 'special' people everything!. Then I was able to sleep for about half an hour, click the refresh button in my browser(for about the 1000th time in two hours), and there it was - my name among the final offers. Mission accomplished!

Story? Dream?

Saurabh slept for one and half hours only last night so when he came back to home he slept. And it was then that he had this great dream. The dream included mainly three people - Saurabh , Martha and Gloria. The dream goes like this:
Saurabh was siting near the divider of the eastern express highway on a bench by the side of a flyover(very odd but this is what he saw). Martha was siting in a nearby bench which was at a right angle to the bench in which he was siting. She was smiling, she had her hair half open & half wrapped and wore a salwar kameez. Gloria was siting far away at the other end of the flyover, but both Saurabh and martha could see her. The situation was that 'Saurabh' was coming there to meet Gloria which saurabh somehow deciphered. Martha also knew about it. Then finally 'Saurabh' came at the other end of the flyover. Gloria told Martha to come up and say 'hi' atleast. Martha was shy and smiling, but she stood up. But as soon as she stood up saurabh told her not to go and told her that he should get more punishment so don't go. Then Gloria and 'Saurabh' came running on the other side of the flyover but by this time saurabh and a new 'Martha' were siting in a car, saurabh was on front seat and she was lying down in the back seat supporting her head with her left hand to watch what was going on outside. They both were watching whats going on outside(near the flyover), by then the bench in which he was siting was gone. This new 'Martha' 's hair was completely open and wore a maroon top and blue jeans and obviously was smiling. Suddenly they saw that Gloria was fighting with some boy and then suddenly they started kissing.Then saurabh commented - "ye kya hain, kuch bhi dikhate hain, real life me aisa thodi naa hoga", then Martha said - "kya pata Gloria ke case me ho possible". Then the car which had no driving wheel or anything started moving and it felt like it was suspended in air. The scene changes to a carnival going on outside the car. Saurabh and Martha discussed various small little things about what was going on outside. They both were very happy. Then saurabh told her- "I know that this is a dream but it's worth a dream, I will never forget this dream". Then saurabh looked up and said - "Thank you God for this dream.." several times. After sometime saurabh heard a little girl's or a boy's voice telling him that it(some juice or chocolate) is present at 10 and 24 36(??). He suddenly started feeling sleepy - his view of everything was fading away in front of him as he was trying to figure out what the little child meant. He was losing all his senses but he tried to keep his eyes on Martha till the last moment, she was still smiling as earlier. And then finally saurabh woke up. Saurabh felt like crying that time but managed not to. He was in a shock for few moments because He found out in the middle of my dream that he was indeed dreaming and apart from that he still enjoyed the dream rather than thinking over it. He saw the watch it was 2:45pm (10th November)(He slept at 10:50am). Every face in the dream was blurry except Martha's. Saurabh tried to sleep again but couldn't as he was in a shock.

It feels different now....

The past few days has molded me into a complete fighter ..fighter to the deep core.. where I learned to fight sadness, depression, health, and even happiness. But after all these, it really feels different now. Though I have slept only 2-3 hrs per day on average, I don't feel sleepy. Though I haven't eaten properly for more than a week, I don't feel hungry. Though I have been angry for few YEARS, I don't feel anger now.
Everything suddenly changed. It is nearly like a dream come true. Nobody knows what is in there for me in future, but right now my head feels so lighter than it has flown to various heights of fascination.Suddenly God showered His sparkles of happiness on me. I feel relieved rather than happy.
Destiny has brought a part of my past in front of me. It shocks me now, how roads cross again in life, though this time I am not that fool anymore to fall in the trap. Suddenly you want to share your happiness with someone but unfortunately situations aren't the same. Few snap shots flash in front of your eyes reminding you of the recent past.

PS:- Even I cant understand what I have written!!!