Essay 1: If we were to admit one more student to the class of 2012, make a compelling argument as to why that student should be you? (300 words max)
A very simple and straightforward question, but the depth of this question is intangible. And for me to brag about myself, my achievements is something that is not in my genes.
I strongly believe in small accomplishments. They may not be visible but these seemingly small and insignificant achievements cause my neurons go crazy and pave the path for bigger achievements. May be work related or something as weird as giving a five rupee coin to a beggar, I never treat anything insignificant. Each one adds to our whole personality in its own unique way.
I am a quiet competitor, I don't like making noise. I will never tell anyone how difficult it is for someone to achieve something that I might have. I hate it. I let the opinions of others flow freely without any manipulation from my side. Well most of the times it causes people to think that I am shallow, unresponsive and insincere. They can hardly figure out what's going on inside. But,this doesn't mean that I never open up. I do sometimes, when it becomes unbearable. But the time interval between such moments keep on increasing each time because of my increased maturity and ability to handle such unbearable situations.
I am an analysis freak. I remember watching scooby dooby doo, CID, discovery channel's documentaries regarding Space and Universe, even Bermuda Triangle all throughout my childhood. I love solving problems, analyzing mysteries, predicting possible outcomes of a particular decision, no wonder I ended up as an "Analyst" in a consulting firm. People get irritated by this, they say "don't think so much". But I can't help it, this is who I am. I can't cut off one of my hands or legs if someone doesn't like it or gets irritated by it.
I never whine about more knowledge and more complexity. I am knowledge hungry and in fact I am at my efficient best when I have less work. I never let go any opportunity to gain any form of knowledge, be it related to my work or something as weird as mating habits of a particular type of chimpanzee in mid-Africa. I regularly watch the documentaries shown in discovery and national geographic channels. I love those. Another aspect to add here is that I focus not only on the learning but also on the method used in learning that new knowledge. Later, one day, I find analogies between chimpanzees and an Informatica mapping, and laugh about it. People ask me -"Why are you laughing?", and I say - " Nothing.."
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Sunday, May 23, 2010
I wonder sometimes - how law of balances apply so perfectly in nature? Evaporation occurs, clouds are formed, rains happen, filling the oceans and seas with that same water that was evaporated once, Law of equivalence of energy - Sun's energy gets to plants, then to humans and then back to earth, which vitalizes the plants. I remember one episode of HIMYM, which epitomized how everyone has a punching bag or rather a shouting box, and this is not an individual phenomenon but is a complete cycle. One's boss shouts at him/her, he/she shouts at his wife/husband, they shout at their friends and the cycle goes on.
Concealed anger and acting are the main causes and perpetrators of such phenomena. When someone is constantly bugged and harassed somewhere, he/she is likely to vent out somewhere else where he/she knows that he/she can't be questioned or challenged. If that person tries to break the cycle by not bursting out, he is likely to suffer from severe migraine and disorientation, which would eventually lead to more bugging and harassing at the former place due to his "incapability" to mingle with the group of people harassing him/her. Here's an example - Suppose there is a person named X, who is humble and ingenuous and doesn't like to point out people's mistakes in open and create a whole scene out of it. Now, he has a group of "friends", which has an innate habit of pointing out people's mistake and constantly bug that person about it. X, a poor guy, who innocently considers his group would accept him as he is, lets out his weaknesses. Well, of course, the consequences were brutal. Being reminded about all his drawbacks and weaknesses every second, X lost a great deal of confidence to even speak a single line. Why ? - Because they would make fun of it regardless of the fact that it is worth making fun or not.Every single action is challenged or questioned, X tries to justify and they find yet another joke to laugh to. But that's not all, the vicious cycle, X returns home with a bad mood and vents out his concealed anger, ruining his life at the very granular level.
One very big question springs up here - Why does he have to mingle with "such" people at the first place? Well, that's a different story. May be X has no choice. Isolation in past can have a grave effect on one's behavior - "Something is better than nothing".
I will not agree that X is still not alone, considering the fact that his life is ruined at both levels. But at least he can act happy and sometimes talk to one of "those" people nicely, enjoying that very moment. That is enough for X to push him over the mountain of all worries and fears he faces each day, every moment.
Is there a solution to the above problem ? Well, probably a solution doesn't exist. X can try to change himself and then choke to death or can try to retaliate in the same way they attack. But, does X like it that way?. He never hurts people on their wounds again and again.
X can suffer but can't see others suffer like he does.
Concealed anger and acting are the main causes and perpetrators of such phenomena. When someone is constantly bugged and harassed somewhere, he/she is likely to vent out somewhere else where he/she knows that he/she can't be questioned or challenged. If that person tries to break the cycle by not bursting out, he is likely to suffer from severe migraine and disorientation, which would eventually lead to more bugging and harassing at the former place due to his "incapability" to mingle with the group of people harassing him/her. Here's an example - Suppose there is a person named X, who is humble and ingenuous and doesn't like to point out people's mistakes in open and create a whole scene out of it. Now, he has a group of "friends", which has an innate habit of pointing out people's mistake and constantly bug that person about it. X, a poor guy, who innocently considers his group would accept him as he is, lets out his weaknesses. Well, of course, the consequences were brutal. Being reminded about all his drawbacks and weaknesses every second, X lost a great deal of confidence to even speak a single line. Why ? - Because they would make fun of it regardless of the fact that it is worth making fun or not.Every single action is challenged or questioned, X tries to justify and they find yet another joke to laugh to. But that's not all, the vicious cycle, X returns home with a bad mood and vents out his concealed anger, ruining his life at the very granular level.
One very big question springs up here - Why does he have to mingle with "such" people at the first place? Well, that's a different story. May be X has no choice. Isolation in past can have a grave effect on one's behavior - "Something is better than nothing".
I will not agree that X is still not alone, considering the fact that his life is ruined at both levels. But at least he can act happy and sometimes talk to one of "those" people nicely, enjoying that very moment. That is enough for X to push him over the mountain of all worries and fears he faces each day, every moment.
Is there a solution to the above problem ? Well, probably a solution doesn't exist. X can try to change himself and then choke to death or can try to retaliate in the same way they attack. But, does X like it that way?. He never hurts people on their wounds again and again.
X can suffer but can't see others suffer like he does.
Sunday, April 4, 2010
I really don't want to write anything specific or give my updates right now, all I want is to vent out my random synapses so that I am not a victim of ennui. Life around has changed so much in recent times, well, I don't know why I say that always when I already know that life will so obviously change and it cannot be obviated. When I look around, I see people running behind something or other, but they are running, some are successful, some are not, I wish I could also run behind something, a dream, a vivid journey or at least something different from my daily routine. "MUSIC" is one such thing, I can't think of any other thing which makes me feel so full of life. Each nerve of my body, each muscle reacts to it. I wish I was not so dilettantish about it. But there are many reasons for that, one of which is fear of failure. The fear crawls up so badly sometimes, it diminishes all hopes and dreams. Well recently I read a beautiful line in some Youtube video which said - "Dream is not what you see in sleep.. Dream is something that doesn't let you sleep". It was a span of few milliseconds before I decided to put it as my facebook status. Well the consequences were not that satisfactory. Somehow, from some corner of the world, few people said that an "IITian" would never put this as a status message. First reaction was anger, second was fear, third was oblivion and the fourth is present continuous tense.
I remember the time when I was a kid I used to ask lot of questions, not to my parents or the people around me but to myself. Most of those questions used to start with "Why". Well, sometimes I got the answer almost instantaneously, sometimes after few years, some are still unanswered I think, but the problem here is I forgot those unanswered questions. The habit of finding reason behind everything was natural to me, nobody told me to do so, I just wanted to do so. That time, I used to keep all those thoughts within my mind, but now it's too full, I can't keep every thought inside, so I just let it out. People around me get irritated but I feel good.
Throughout my life, I have moved ahead making so many analogies, some may sound very ambiguous, but it used to help me find answers and help me make peace with my mind. Again, a very bad habit, makes life very tough when you cannot find few answers, fear creeps in, you lose self-confidence, all bad thoughts flash in front of your eyes and you waste your valuable time in finding answers to few questions which need not be answered. I wish I lose this neurotic nature before I become complete mad, although I like being mad, because it segregates me from the crowd.
I see so many success stories around, which have faced lots of problems upfront but the basic theme of such stories remain the same. Each of such stories was based on a vision, a passion, hunger and innovativeness. Sometimes I feel that I can be a part of such a story, a story which can be a source of inspiration for someone. But again, the vision is lacking here, may be I am looking in the wrong direction or I am not supposed to be in such a story. When I look back, I don't see any account of such achievements, even if any, those are too small to be accounted. Definition of achievement holds a different place for me, sometimes even a petty problem can teach me millions, but most of the times I cannot scale it up to a bigger picture. To keep myself happy, I say to myself - "It's ok". Deep down I say - "I have to do it somehow, is there no way?".
I lost my innocence like people lose their virginity during initial years of college. I used to be ingenuous but the world changed me to someone so taciturn that I miss my own self sometimes. I have lost touch with my own family, I don't feel the same anymore for them. I have moved away too much from them, I hate it, I see others sharing so much with their family, being happy about going out with their own family, but why am I a different person when I am not with them? There are many reasons when I introspect but I guess, everyone faces such challenges, why is it me, who is unable to cope up? My mother complains me of not participating in family matters and prioritizing other things to family, but how can I help it? My iconoclastic nature causes lots of rifts, both external and internal. Should I do this to make my parents happy or should I do this to maintain my principles of life? I remain mum to the first and reply "Yes" to the second. I make a lot of assumptions, sometimes they turn out right, sometimes they don't and sometimes I don't want them to be true. The fact that I lost touch has cost me a lot. I don't see anyone around me with whom I can share the exact things which are going on in my mind, I feel alone, I get distracted, yet I have to act to maintain equilibrium. I miss my old family laughter, the one with my mother, those days were the golden days in all respects.
Every minute acting has made me tired, assuming things have made me tired. I can't even go to a girl and say - "I like you", why?, fear creeps in, I cannot share it with my family, I would have to hide, added tension, I better keep away. Do I really support arrange marriage? Hell no, but is it effective? Hell Yes. I fall in love everyday, every moment, sometimes it feels awesome, but most of the times it is bad, especially when I know the girl is least interested. Sometimes I experiment reactions from her, but sometimes I give it away and let it go. I tried hard to find the perfect girl, but till now unable to do so, some have come very close, but few petty things always come in between, I am a person who hates constraints but can't help it, for I have to maintain equilibrium. It puts so much pressure on me, my mind blows up. There was a time, when I used to be proud of my friends, but now I am cynical, why?, because I find that I am the only one who cares, everyone else is just going on through some phase in life. Sometimes I want to say so many things to a girl, but I can't, same old fear. I want to tell her things about her beauty, her attitude and what not but I become cramped. These 'I' type thoughts fill my mind and often come up in conversations and make people think I am an egotist, but I can't help it, I need a channel for them to flow.
I need an incendiary vision, I need a dream. Right now I am blind, and my past won't let go off me. Everyone is pinching at the green spot without realizing it is a fresh wound, I try to neglect those negative forces, but for how long? God forbid if I burst someday, that day, history would be repeated, which would be a darker nightmare. So I act, act every day, every second, just to prevent that from happening. I am not a omniscient, I wish I was, then those situations would never arrive, then I would stop asking questions and will be answering them only.
I remember the time when I was a kid I used to ask lot of questions, not to my parents or the people around me but to myself. Most of those questions used to start with "Why". Well, sometimes I got the answer almost instantaneously, sometimes after few years, some are still unanswered I think, but the problem here is I forgot those unanswered questions. The habit of finding reason behind everything was natural to me, nobody told me to do so, I just wanted to do so. That time, I used to keep all those thoughts within my mind, but now it's too full, I can't keep every thought inside, so I just let it out. People around me get irritated but I feel good.
Throughout my life, I have moved ahead making so many analogies, some may sound very ambiguous, but it used to help me find answers and help me make peace with my mind. Again, a very bad habit, makes life very tough when you cannot find few answers, fear creeps in, you lose self-confidence, all bad thoughts flash in front of your eyes and you waste your valuable time in finding answers to few questions which need not be answered. I wish I lose this neurotic nature before I become complete mad, although I like being mad, because it segregates me from the crowd.
I see so many success stories around, which have faced lots of problems upfront but the basic theme of such stories remain the same. Each of such stories was based on a vision, a passion, hunger and innovativeness. Sometimes I feel that I can be a part of such a story, a story which can be a source of inspiration for someone. But again, the vision is lacking here, may be I am looking in the wrong direction or I am not supposed to be in such a story. When I look back, I don't see any account of such achievements, even if any, those are too small to be accounted. Definition of achievement holds a different place for me, sometimes even a petty problem can teach me millions, but most of the times I cannot scale it up to a bigger picture. To keep myself happy, I say to myself - "It's ok". Deep down I say - "I have to do it somehow, is there no way?".
I lost my innocence like people lose their virginity during initial years of college. I used to be ingenuous but the world changed me to someone so taciturn that I miss my own self sometimes. I have lost touch with my own family, I don't feel the same anymore for them. I have moved away too much from them, I hate it, I see others sharing so much with their family, being happy about going out with their own family, but why am I a different person when I am not with them? There are many reasons when I introspect but I guess, everyone faces such challenges, why is it me, who is unable to cope up? My mother complains me of not participating in family matters and prioritizing other things to family, but how can I help it? My iconoclastic nature causes lots of rifts, both external and internal. Should I do this to make my parents happy or should I do this to maintain my principles of life? I remain mum to the first and reply "Yes" to the second. I make a lot of assumptions, sometimes they turn out right, sometimes they don't and sometimes I don't want them to be true. The fact that I lost touch has cost me a lot. I don't see anyone around me with whom I can share the exact things which are going on in my mind, I feel alone, I get distracted, yet I have to act to maintain equilibrium. I miss my old family laughter, the one with my mother, those days were the golden days in all respects.
Every minute acting has made me tired, assuming things have made me tired. I can't even go to a girl and say - "I like you", why?, fear creeps in, I cannot share it with my family, I would have to hide, added tension, I better keep away. Do I really support arrange marriage? Hell no, but is it effective? Hell Yes. I fall in love everyday, every moment, sometimes it feels awesome, but most of the times it is bad, especially when I know the girl is least interested. Sometimes I experiment reactions from her, but sometimes I give it away and let it go. I tried hard to find the perfect girl, but till now unable to do so, some have come very close, but few petty things always come in between, I am a person who hates constraints but can't help it, for I have to maintain equilibrium. It puts so much pressure on me, my mind blows up. There was a time, when I used to be proud of my friends, but now I am cynical, why?, because I find that I am the only one who cares, everyone else is just going on through some phase in life. Sometimes I want to say so many things to a girl, but I can't, same old fear. I want to tell her things about her beauty, her attitude and what not but I become cramped. These 'I' type thoughts fill my mind and often come up in conversations and make people think I am an egotist, but I can't help it, I need a channel for them to flow.
I need an incendiary vision, I need a dream. Right now I am blind, and my past won't let go off me. Everyone is pinching at the green spot without realizing it is a fresh wound, I try to neglect those negative forces, but for how long? God forbid if I burst someday, that day, history would be repeated, which would be a darker nightmare. So I act, act every day, every second, just to prevent that from happening. I am not a omniscient, I wish I was, then those situations would never arrive, then I would stop asking questions and will be answering them only.
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Before any updates, one thing, Ajeytaa came to know about the blog, x-(. But it's fine. I hope it doesn't effects my writing.One of the aim of writing my blog is to send away a message to someone or about something and I hope to fulfill it. Well I have been lazy and hence writing the blog after a longer duration than usual.
1. Went to Hyderabad for Ascend Program for two days. Well to sum up the experience, it was great. We had three flights taking us to the destination. The flight in which we went, we played Dumb-Charades, Holly/Bolly. Basically the trip was more like a train trip where we were standing most of the time and the air hostesses were a bit pissed off !! :P. We stayed in a 5 star hotel (Novotel)...obviously the rooms were awesome, the food was not :(, the program was just a formality. I met my bodomama and bodomimi (bade mamaji and mamiji) and had dinner with them. All of our batch even went to the hyderabad deloitte office, after which we went to a sports karaoke bar where we danced and sang and enjoyed a lot. We even played Mafia (I played for the first time). Well everyone was there from my friends except Tanvi who just missed out due to personal reasons. :( .
2. Finally the CAT fever is gone for a while (untill GD and PI starts) as everyone is done with them.
3. Haven't gone to gym for a while because I caught cold and fever which caused me to work from home for two days.I think I gained a little weight :P. Hoping to start Gym again soon.
4. Well I think I need to change my way of showing that I care for my friends. It was a normal day at office. We all go for breakfast in the canteen. All here means - Me, Rishabh , Divy, Tanvi and Ajeytaa. Now Divyansh has the habit of playing pranks on people especially Ajeytaa, so he took the battery out of her mobile and kept it with himself ( the prank he was wanting to play for so long).So later she found out about it and so in the process of finding the culprit attacked me. Now you will encounter the most confusing prank of all time. So here it goes.., She took my mouse and kept it in her drawer. Seeing this - I took divyansh's mouse and kept it with myself. Then vishesh (another colleague) and Ajeytaa took my iTouch (dont know where it was kept)(after this ajeytaa went for lunch),I took vishesh's bose's headphones and he took my laptop charger, and in reply I took Ajeytaa's mouse and laptop charger. Then I stole ajeytaa's drawer's key in front of her eyes and she didn't realized that time.Then I came back to ajeytaa's desk and found my mouse and ipod in her drawer. After that in order to teach divyansh a lesson since he was the culprit, I took his headphones and kept it in Ajeytaa's drawer and kept Ajeytaa's phone charger in divyansh's place. I returned vishesh everything since i got my iTouch. So then I got back my things - mouse, laptop charger, iTouch. I then gave Ajeytaa's drawer keys to vishesh who sits near her. He then kept in somewhere. Then Ajeytaa came back and found everything here and there. She came to me and started snatching my mouse, laptop and all. I told her - You took my mouse, and in the process she finally threw the mouse and went away saying - "this is not even funny". Later I found out the mouse was not working (I got it changed). So Ajeytaa stopped talking to us ( me, divy and rishabh). She didn't talk in bus (sat at a different place), during breakfast and everything. Well due to my previous experiences, I adjusted quickly to the situation but I guess divyansh didn't and fought hard to make everything normal. I thought of sending a mail to her (even drafted one) but later decided not to. The things became very worse, as in we almost missed bus back home one day when the bus suddenly changed and we were waiting somewhere else. It felt bad, very bad, extremely bad but I managed. I felt as if my first impression about her came true. I remember her saying once - "nothing affects me that much", so assuming that I said to myself - " well nothing will effect her now, she has other friends, other group to hang out with and so let her enjoy, we were just another small part which stopped existing and so why should I care at all now (I felt sorry for divyansh, he was new I guess but no problem he will also learn now), better to let the heartless, feel-less Ajeytaa go from our lives , although I don't treat life like a market where we give and then take but at that point I became corporate in true terms" .I remember writing a point about her in my previous post, I realize the importance of making note of things now since this can surely teach me yet another lesson and keep me cautious about what not to in future and what not to expect from someone or something. In protest I blocked her from gmail and facebook. Also I remained invisible in my communicator for two-three days. Well whenever something like this happens my mind diverts towards music and it's magic and thanks to my I-pod and Guitar for this. I suddenly felt powerful and enlightened. That's when I created something.
5. Well although ajeytaa was not there, I, rishabh and divy went for the movie - "paa" which was quite enjoyable. We even got us clicked in butt-chairs of 3-idiots which were kept in the multiplex :P.
6.Finally I got my oracle PLSQL reimbursement back and also got the money refunded for the DY Patil match which didn't happened. I was happy to get some random money back :P, although it was my money only which I got back :P.
7. Well regarding the case with Ajeytaa, Rishabh one day talked to her and made her understand something which I don't know about. So suddenly one day I got a call in office from divyansh saying - "Avatar dekhega 3-D me?" and I replied where, who all and when. Tht day I stayed back in office till 8:30 since I had a call. So he said - Vashi, 10:15 and we four including Ajeytaa . I said ok although wondering what happened suddenly. Well I reached vashi, entered McD and while eating, they all came in. I talked to divy and rishabh but not ajeytaa, she broke the silence by saying sorry, I looked her with no expectations at all (as if I dont even know her and she doesnt affects me may be due to the practice I went through the previous two weeks) and said - Why r u saying sorry, u should not. And then we went to many places, here and there, more outings and all but still those practice sessions were dominating over all these.
Then one day we all went to Tanvi's place for night out, there we also went to Hard rock cafe and gateway of india. I guess this was the day when I flushed my memory and accepted ajeytaa back in my life. I was finally feeling comfortable again. So things were back to normal but I decided I will restrict few things like - commenting on some things, hiting her :P, expecting anything in return from her etc. By this way, everything would be perfect and will cause no harm. I decided to do this for Janani and Tanvi too. But I dont think I require it for tanvi. Janani said once in chat that - I might seem calm and all but one day you all will realize the actual me and then thank me for my support and help. Well lets see if that day comes soon :P. So now, I am back to zero expectations state and as usual happy :).
8. The new year day - everyone has gone somewhere, rishabh to aurangabad with his parents, Ajeytaa to delhi.Also I was not well for two days before new year. Our office declared 31st also as a holiday, so I, divy and tanvi decided to watch 3 idiots on 31st morning. Then out of nowhere janani suddenly said that she is bored and wants to go to some place like lonavla or khandala, divy supported her but I made them believe it would not be possible since movie gets over at 2:15 and if we want to get back by evening, we cant go very far. So we decided that we would go towards pune and keep going till we feel we should come back. And so on 31st, tanvi came in to watch the movie, we watched it. Tanvi was looking a bit lost, dont know why, may be because Rishabh wasnt there :P. After that janani came in and we roamed around kharghar a bit and then finally went towards pune, there we stopped at a place and found a small haunted house type place, we took pics and even videos :P and finally returned, then we went to Palm beach drive and stopped at the lake. Then I dropped divyansh to his house and janani to the station and went back home. Well I remember my 12:00 am was on facebook playing cricket :).
9. Mood Indigo - I, ajeytaa, vandita, deepak, decided to go for mood indigo. So we went to the night when shankar-ehsaan-loy performed. Now here I want to stress on a few points and talk about this Janani. Well after asking janani and ajeytaa and tanvi , I told apoorv to get 3 passes for me which he did. I told all of them that I have got the passes and hence we will go. Tanvi later on informed she cant come because she was busy in her project, so I said no probs. I then asked janani again - r u coming since vandita was also asking for a pass and she said she will tell me. So I told vandita that lets see if it is possible.Ajeytaa and janani were in a call, so I waited, I waited for one and half hours from 5:30 to 7:00, to find out from Ajeytaa that janani is not coming, I said ok and was angry for the Nth time. By this time, deepak got extra pass for vandita and so we were good to go. We went there, we danced ,we enjoyed a lot. Then went back to eat at some place and finally stayed back at Ojas's place for the night out where I met some old friend of mine. Next day I came back home. But wait why was I angry and that also for the Nth time. Well this girl Janani has no idea of communication, she is so very much obsessed with herself that she gets lost. I don't know what is the problem with her. I asked her many times to confirm whether she is in or not, but no she didn't follow up. She does that all the time, during music practices I ask her what time she is free and when I call her during that time she says she forgot to mention that she had some work or that work. I am completely fed up with this behaviour. And when I point her out that you should not do this - she says I am rude , arrogant , heartless. I don't get it. Well the solution - same policy as Ajeytaa , zero expectations. I think it already started working.
Well for now, I will only post this much. I have other things too but don't wanna write now, so will add later on. Also I don't want the above to remain "unposted".
The main headlines of the continuing post would be:
- Video Chat with a friend in US :).
- Meeting a friend after 8 months although lives next building.
- Investment Declarations and all
- IM Funday
- Sherlock holmes, pool and "intense discussion"
- Volleyball SPOC and Sports meet
- My house - new furnitures and all
- Cycle to sister
- Letter from someone (frustating)
- Scavenger hunt team (Scooby dooby don't)
1. Went to Hyderabad for Ascend Program for two days. Well to sum up the experience, it was great. We had three flights taking us to the destination. The flight in which we went, we played Dumb-Charades, Holly/Bolly. Basically the trip was more like a train trip where we were standing most of the time and the air hostesses were a bit pissed off !! :P. We stayed in a 5 star hotel (Novotel)...obviously the rooms were awesome, the food was not :(, the program was just a formality. I met my bodomama and bodomimi (bade mamaji and mamiji) and had dinner with them. All of our batch even went to the hyderabad deloitte office, after which we went to a sports karaoke bar where we danced and sang and enjoyed a lot. We even played Mafia (I played for the first time). Well everyone was there from my friends except Tanvi who just missed out due to personal reasons. :( .
2. Finally the CAT fever is gone for a while (untill GD and PI starts) as everyone is done with them.
3. Haven't gone to gym for a while because I caught cold and fever which caused me to work from home for two days.I think I gained a little weight :P. Hoping to start Gym again soon.
4. Well I think I need to change my way of showing that I care for my friends. It was a normal day at office. We all go for breakfast in the canteen. All here means - Me, Rishabh , Divy, Tanvi and Ajeytaa. Now Divyansh has the habit of playing pranks on people especially Ajeytaa, so he took the battery out of her mobile and kept it with himself ( the prank he was wanting to play for so long).So later she found out about it and so in the process of finding the culprit attacked me. Now you will encounter the most confusing prank of all time. So here it goes.., She took my mouse and kept it in her drawer. Seeing this - I took divyansh's mouse and kept it with myself. Then vishesh (another colleague) and Ajeytaa took my iTouch (dont know where it was kept)(after this ajeytaa went for lunch),I took vishesh's bose's headphones and he took my laptop charger, and in reply I took Ajeytaa's mouse and laptop charger. Then I stole ajeytaa's drawer's key in front of her eyes and she didn't realized that time.Then I came back to ajeytaa's desk and found my mouse and ipod in her drawer. After that in order to teach divyansh a lesson since he was the culprit, I took his headphones and kept it in Ajeytaa's drawer and kept Ajeytaa's phone charger in divyansh's place. I returned vishesh everything since i got my iTouch. So then I got back my things - mouse, laptop charger, iTouch. I then gave Ajeytaa's drawer keys to vishesh who sits near her. He then kept in somewhere. Then Ajeytaa came back and found everything here and there. She came to me and started snatching my mouse, laptop and all. I told her - You took my mouse, and in the process she finally threw the mouse and went away saying - "this is not even funny". Later I found out the mouse was not working (I got it changed). So Ajeytaa stopped talking to us ( me, divy and rishabh). She didn't talk in bus (sat at a different place), during breakfast and everything. Well due to my previous experiences, I adjusted quickly to the situation but I guess divyansh didn't and fought hard to make everything normal. I thought of sending a mail to her (even drafted one) but later decided not to. The things became very worse, as in we almost missed bus back home one day when the bus suddenly changed and we were waiting somewhere else. It felt bad, very bad, extremely bad but I managed. I felt as if my first impression about her came true. I remember her saying once - "nothing affects me that much", so assuming that I said to myself - " well nothing will effect her now, she has other friends, other group to hang out with and so let her enjoy, we were just another small part which stopped existing and so why should I care at all now (I felt sorry for divyansh, he was new I guess but no problem he will also learn now), better to let the heartless, feel-less Ajeytaa go from our lives , although I don't treat life like a market where we give and then take but at that point I became corporate in true terms" .I remember writing a point about her in my previous post, I realize the importance of making note of things now since this can surely teach me yet another lesson and keep me cautious about what not to in future and what not to expect from someone or something. In protest I blocked her from gmail and facebook. Also I remained invisible in my communicator for two-three days. Well whenever something like this happens my mind diverts towards music and it's magic and thanks to my I-pod and Guitar for this. I suddenly felt powerful and enlightened. That's when I created something.
5. Well although ajeytaa was not there, I, rishabh and divy went for the movie - "paa" which was quite enjoyable. We even got us clicked in butt-chairs of 3-idiots which were kept in the multiplex :P.
6.Finally I got my oracle PLSQL reimbursement back and also got the money refunded for the DY Patil match which didn't happened. I was happy to get some random money back :P, although it was my money only which I got back :P.
7. Well regarding the case with Ajeytaa, Rishabh one day talked to her and made her understand something which I don't know about. So suddenly one day I got a call in office from divyansh saying - "Avatar dekhega 3-D me?" and I replied where, who all and when. Tht day I stayed back in office till 8:30 since I had a call. So he said - Vashi, 10:15 and we four including Ajeytaa . I said ok although wondering what happened suddenly. Well I reached vashi, entered McD and while eating, they all came in. I talked to divy and rishabh but not ajeytaa, she broke the silence by saying sorry, I looked her with no expectations at all (as if I dont even know her and she doesnt affects me may be due to the practice I went through the previous two weeks) and said - Why r u saying sorry, u should not. And then we went to many places, here and there, more outings and all but still those practice sessions were dominating over all these.
Then one day we all went to Tanvi's place for night out, there we also went to Hard rock cafe and gateway of india. I guess this was the day when I flushed my memory and accepted ajeytaa back in my life. I was finally feeling comfortable again. So things were back to normal but I decided I will restrict few things like - commenting on some things, hiting her :P, expecting anything in return from her etc. By this way, everything would be perfect and will cause no harm. I decided to do this for Janani and Tanvi too. But I dont think I require it for tanvi. Janani said once in chat that - I might seem calm and all but one day you all will realize the actual me and then thank me for my support and help. Well lets see if that day comes soon :P. So now, I am back to zero expectations state and as usual happy :).
8. The new year day - everyone has gone somewhere, rishabh to aurangabad with his parents, Ajeytaa to delhi.Also I was not well for two days before new year. Our office declared 31st also as a holiday, so I, divy and tanvi decided to watch 3 idiots on 31st morning. Then out of nowhere janani suddenly said that she is bored and wants to go to some place like lonavla or khandala, divy supported her but I made them believe it would not be possible since movie gets over at 2:15 and if we want to get back by evening, we cant go very far. So we decided that we would go towards pune and keep going till we feel we should come back. And so on 31st, tanvi came in to watch the movie, we watched it. Tanvi was looking a bit lost, dont know why, may be because Rishabh wasnt there :P. After that janani came in and we roamed around kharghar a bit and then finally went towards pune, there we stopped at a place and found a small haunted house type place, we took pics and even videos :P and finally returned, then we went to Palm beach drive and stopped at the lake. Then I dropped divyansh to his house and janani to the station and went back home. Well I remember my 12:00 am was on facebook playing cricket :).
9. Mood Indigo - I, ajeytaa, vandita, deepak, decided to go for mood indigo. So we went to the night when shankar-ehsaan-loy performed. Now here I want to stress on a few points and talk about this Janani. Well after asking janani and ajeytaa and tanvi , I told apoorv to get 3 passes for me which he did. I told all of them that I have got the passes and hence we will go. Tanvi later on informed she cant come because she was busy in her project, so I said no probs. I then asked janani again - r u coming since vandita was also asking for a pass and she said she will tell me. So I told vandita that lets see if it is possible.Ajeytaa and janani were in a call, so I waited, I waited for one and half hours from 5:30 to 7:00, to find out from Ajeytaa that janani is not coming, I said ok and was angry for the Nth time. By this time, deepak got extra pass for vandita and so we were good to go. We went there, we danced ,we enjoyed a lot. Then went back to eat at some place and finally stayed back at Ojas's place for the night out where I met some old friend of mine. Next day I came back home. But wait why was I angry and that also for the Nth time. Well this girl Janani has no idea of communication, she is so very much obsessed with herself that she gets lost. I don't know what is the problem with her. I asked her many times to confirm whether she is in or not, but no she didn't follow up. She does that all the time, during music practices I ask her what time she is free and when I call her during that time she says she forgot to mention that she had some work or that work. I am completely fed up with this behaviour. And when I point her out that you should not do this - she says I am rude , arrogant , heartless. I don't get it. Well the solution - same policy as Ajeytaa , zero expectations. I think it already started working.
Well for now, I will only post this much. I have other things too but don't wanna write now, so will add later on. Also I don't want the above to remain "unposted".
The main headlines of the continuing post would be:
- Video Chat with a friend in US :).
- Meeting a friend after 8 months although lives next building.
- Investment Declarations and all
- IM Funday
- Sherlock holmes, pool and "intense discussion"
- Volleyball SPOC and Sports meet
- My house - new furnitures and all
- Cycle to sister
- Letter from someone (frustating)
- Scavenger hunt team (Scooby dooby don't)
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