It's Coming...

Well the time has come which will decide where will I end up from this f**king life. The time which will decide my path and destiny for next few years. Whether I will be successful in it or not that only time can tell, but surely it's coming. Though I am not that excited and not hoping much from it because I guess my resume tells much less things about me than what I am actually capable of and so the other people don't actually are able to judge me in a right way. I realized some mistakes have been too big and I had to pay a very big price for it. If I had been focused since the beginning or even if somebody would have me a hint of all this, I would have chosen an all together different path and ended up somewhere else. Though the way I have been through has given me lots of positives but somewhere made me realize I could have done better, much better. Well to keep hope is good but to see it shatter in front of your eyes and see the unfair is worse, so it's better not to have any hope at all to start. Hope is a very small word in this situation. May be I will laugh over it some day or may be I will take a lesson, who knows. But it's coming.

The Fight Goes On...

When can you say that you have become normal? There are no particular indications as such but I think when you are able to curb some of the feelings and when some songs, some piece of paper or even some topic of your project(My God !! who knew even this can hurt) doesn't effect you.
When you press the fast forward button whenever a sentimental ideal romantic scene appears during a movie,
when you are again able to bear few slow songs,
when you don't search Google for arbitrary things or don't keep looking for something related to past rigorously,
when you don't press the refresh button on the browser again and again,
when you again start taking care of your health,
when you don't fear meeting people,
when you are able to be in visible mode in chat engines,
when you start attending lectures again,
when you don't blame yourselves for everything,
when you again start liking cricket,
when you are again able to see other people in eyes,
when you stop watching sitcoms,movies etc continuously bunking lectures just to keep the mind busy,
when you again start living,
when you don't shout at your friends,
when you don't want to be alone,
.....
But the Fight goes on.....

Great song.....Great lyrics

Alvida (by Salman Ahmed-lead guitarist of Junoon-the band)

Kaise Kahon, Yeh Raaz Tujhe
Mera Dil De, Awaaz Tujhe
Yohi Rahe Tu, Mere Baad Bhi
Tujhe Sukh De, Meri Yaad Bhi

Alvida, Alvida
Alvida, Mera Saath Jo Diya
Mere Dost, Shukria
Alvida, Alvida

Kaise Kahon Yeh Raaz Tujhe
Mera Dil De, Awaaz Tujhe
Yohi Rahe Tu, Mere Baad Bhi
Tujhe Sukh De, Meri Yaad Bhi


Meri Zindagi, Mein Sakoon Hai, Na Qarar Hai
Mere Paas Baas, Teri Yaad Hai, Tera Pyaar Hai

Alvida, Alvida
Alvida, Mera Saath Jo Diya
Mere Dost, Shukria
Alvida, Alvida

Teri Chahaton, Ke Rahenge Aise,Silsilay, Hain Kathan Magar
Koi Mere Jaisa, Tujhe mile

Kaise Kahon, Yeh Raaz Tujhe
Mera Dilde, Awaaz Tujhe
Yuhi Rahe Tu, Mere Baad Bhi
Tujhe Sukh De, Meri Yaad Bhi

Alvida, Alvida
Alvida, Mera Saath Jo Diya
Mere Dost, Shukria
Alvida, Alvida

My playlist

Right now my current playlist includes the following songs:-

- When your mind's made up -ONCE ...Great song
- If you want me - ONCE ...
- Falling slowly - ONCE ...
- Naa koi - Mirage OC ... :)
- Alvida - Salman Ahmed ...
- Naa jaane - Mirage OC ...
- Saara jaahan - Mirage OC ...
- How to save a life - Fray ...
- Socha hain - Rock on! ...
- Tum ho to - Rock on! ( Favourite! among all rock on songs!!)

OC - Original Composition

Naa jaane

Naa jaane dil me hain yeh kaisi aarzoo
Kyun puche mann har dum ye sawaal tu

Shaamo ke rang ho naa jaye bekaabu
Subah ki parchayiyon ke piche tu

Dil me hain ek kaafir sa toofan
Wo chehra kyun chhode naa zubaan

Wo meethi yaadon ka tha ek karva
Choti si par dil ki gehri dastaan

Kyun main ye jaanu naa manzil pehchanu naa
Kyun main ye jaanu naa manzil pehchanu naa

Manzil pehchanu naa... Manzil pehchanu naa

These are the lyrics of a new song Apoorv wrote and I liked it very much, and I like the tune too after addition of chords.. Still incomplete but I love it. :P If anyone is interested in the chords they are Bm Am Bm Em and C Bm C Bm ... And Am Em Am Em... too many minors hehe :P I love Am and Em...

PS:- No post scripts in these post :P (ooops!!!)

Perseverance succeeds.... :)

Well this was only a chapter in my moral science book in class 5th ,11 years back(my memory :P), but it is so true. Perseverance means trying again and again or holding on to some course of action to complete some task or anything. These two words had so much effect on me during that time that I still remember the words till now. Well long ago in my blog I mentioned that I use my blog as a messenger to someone or as a punching bag. And when I use to give out a message I use it good.
Sometimes some people don't understand how they look when they behave like someone who they aren't or keep things inside them( Eg:- Minisha Lamba's character in bachna ae haseeno :P , I love those parts of the movie :P , now I know from where do the story writers get inspired- ' real life' :P).So they need to be shown what they look like by not being themselves. They try to act things out but deep inside they are still that original human being, That some people included me too for last few weeks until I realized it's terrible to act things out and not being one self. But I guess finally or may be very soon the former purpose of my blog has done the job in sending a message. In fact it has been like - "Ek teer se do nishane" - and the nishana has been good at least for my case.So trying again and again has helped and certainly perseverance succeeds.
This doesn't means (as it may seem to someone) that the things I have written are all fake and untrue. It's true by every word and I don't care if someone believes it or not because this is what is ME, I know who I am and that is enough for me to live with. People can have opinions , judgments and what not about me but I simple don't care.
Sorry mom , sis (who cared not to fight on bhai duj to make me feel special that day :P) for unnecessary shouting and being angry for no reason involving you.
Thank you mummy (angel):P, frnds..!! for support when I needed the most.
Now I need to apply the perseverance thing on other things like CAT(no hope left at all with 15 days left, long time I studied for it :P), endsems :( (don't know what is going on in any subject as I have broken all records of bunking classes by anyone at any level :P), placement (although I hate doing standard old jobs but still I need money to do more important things which I like so I need a job :P). As you have heard that picture ke end me sab kuch thik thak ho hi jaata hain , I hope even if I screw up on these things , it ends well because all's well that ends well.(Yup this is also true along with all that's well ends :P).
PS:- These story writers , they just steal real life characters and stories , shit I can't make a movie on a part of my life :P, they even steal part of real life character's name :P .
PPS:- Blog War's over I guess.. :P Yippeee...!!
PPPS:- I wake up as the Lonely September ends , Happy November !!
PPPPS:- Uff too many post scripts...